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I now know the exact reason that I have been single all this time and why I will likely die as such. It has nothing to do with my weight or face or anything. How did this all come about? Well I was sitting in the cafe at our schools B&N drinking a frappachino with the money I found in my pocket. I had put quite some honey in there, just cause and I look up from reading my book (Lewis Black's Nothing is sacred.. really good but suprising.) And this girl in the line, keeps looking at me. She was kinda cute, looked like a older Catrine (Girl I took to prom, the bitch who ditched.) she smiles, I blush, I think thats it. I am in the middle of reading and I have the spoon in my mouth cause im a taurus when BOOM she walks over. " Mind if I sit down?" now I panic, I don't know how noticible it is but all the sudden this... hot iron poker of fear is jamed into my belly. I look up, she has a flirting smile and it gets worse. I realize that the only time I had ever been more afraid is when the doctors told me I had diabeites back in 6th grade. That is sad, major illness and possible blindness=girl flirting. She clearly picks up on somehting as she says. " You know.. Im gonna do some scarry shit so it might be better if I hid in a corner thanks." and I croak some reply as she pats my back. I see her later talking to some guy who looks much dumber then me. It hurts, that my body and emotions betray me so.