Its been awhile...
Ive decided since no one really cares about my life that Ill just type it out on here where no one really sees.
I am not a person who complains to the masses. Yes I whine, and bitch but I trully dont let my insides out much. I seriously dont know what to do with myself. I am a stay at home mother who has no idea how to handle it. Im not a good cleaner. My child has a bad mouth and talks back worse than I have evenr seen any child do. She wont sleep. I have a husband who works , work, works, and works. I never see him. When I do get alone time we either fight or have aweful sex which would be great if I wasnt depressed. I want to be a good mother, housekeeper, and wife but I cant. Nothing I seem to do is good enough.
I want to do photography all the time. I want to take pictures of everything. I want to get paid for it. I cant do this free shit anymore. I need a magazine job, or something where my talent is useful. I feel useless. Absolutly useless. My husband hates me and thanks Im lazy, my daughter talks back and will not do what I say (at all), I have no one to talk to that understands because they all want to tell me to shut up and stop whining. I dont want to ruin my child or husbands life if theres something better for them. No I am not going to kill myself, but I hurt so much. I am in constant pain. I have gone to the doctor but they say nothings wrong. There must be something. I cant keep a job, Im just fucking useless!!!
I am not a person who complains to the masses. Yes I whine, and bitch but I trully dont let my insides out much. I seriously dont know what to do with myself. I am a stay at home mother who has no idea how to handle it. Im not a good cleaner. My child has a bad mouth and talks back worse than I have evenr seen any child do. She wont sleep. I have a husband who works , work, works, and works. I never see him. When I do get alone time we either fight or have aweful sex which would be great if I wasnt depressed. I want to be a good mother, housekeeper, and wife but I cant. Nothing I seem to do is good enough.
I want to do photography all the time. I want to take pictures of everything. I want to get paid for it. I cant do this free shit anymore. I need a magazine job, or something where my talent is useful. I feel useless. Absolutly useless. My husband hates me and thanks Im lazy, my daughter talks back and will not do what I say (at all), I have no one to talk to that understands because they all want to tell me to shut up and stop whining. I dont want to ruin my child or husbands life if theres something better for them. No I am not going to kill myself, but I hurt so much. I am in constant pain. I have gone to the doctor but they say nothings wrong. There must be something. I cant keep a job, Im just fucking useless!!!