just like heaven...
so, today David Michael Klinghard died, sometime after 6:15 and before 7:00. he was in a car accident in which the vehicle rear ended a stopped 18 wheeler. he was the passenger, my friend dain the driver. dain is alive and concussioned, but alive and in my living room. david suffered severe head trauma.
at 7:00, i got the call.
at 8:00, i was out the door but found i had a flat tire.
at 9:00, i was on my way out the door with shannon to the airport.
at 10:15, i was up in the air getting to him as fast as i could.
at 12:00, i was at the hospital. david was on life support and not breathing for himself.
at 1:00, after convincing his father that i had to see him, unconscious or not, i go in to see him. i sat by his side for at least 45 minutes. i told him about all of the crazy shit we have still to do together.
i sang him our song, NOFX - Corazon de Oro, and i shit you not, in those minutes i was singing that heart rate of his went back up. but not enough. then it dropped again.
i held his hand. i told him i love him. that he can't die because he is supposed to marry me one day. i called him a loser. and i told him i love him over and over and over.
at 2:30 or so, we pick up dain from the hospital. i have to tell him what has happened. this is not a good moment. we go home, sleepwalk through life, and try to understand.
at 5:30 or so, scott has arrived and my dad gets off the phone with david's father.
at 6:30 or so, my dad tells me that they have taken david off the drugs that are meant to keep his brain from swelling. they are taking him off of life support next. so i call because i want to be there when it happens. david's dad answers the phone.
the conversation:
"hi, dad? it's heather."
"heather?"
"yeah."
"heather, david just passed."
**phone cuts out**
screaming,
"he's dead."
scott, dain, my brother, my mother, my father and i all become hysterical.
and that is how it happened. just as easily as two words: david passed.
and i wasn't fucking there. i had no idea they were going to let him go after only 16 hours. he didn't even get 24 hours to try.
and i wasn't fucking there.
david is a whole lot of things to me. david is my biggest critic, but he is my greatest supporter. he has the biggest flair for making me fucking insane, but he is my best friend. he was supposed to marry me one day, you know? he is, pure and simple, the love of my life. i love that boy with all of my heart.
and now what i can do is just remind everyone of what a crazy awesome bastard he is. make sure everyone knows i love him. make sure he is still alive through all of the amazing things we did. i can make sure everyone who loves him has the chance to let the world know.
and i fucking will.
Corazon de Oro, our version is by NOFX, originally by Rancid.
It's over before it starts
Oh don't you know
So on your marks and stand by
Ready, go
From London to New York, Montreal to Tokyo
I see visions of her everywhere I go
What have I become?
Now that I'm all alone
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul?
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
She only comes once
there to count with her champagne case
She goes straight down the rathole with her
Total recklessness and
Tomorrow will come on through
And I got nothing but a barely mentioned
Nothing but a sillouette girl
Met her in darkness
I say
What have I become?
Now that I'm all alone
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul?
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
I said I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
Yeah I'm in the corner I start over
I start the whole slate clean
All the pain and heartache in all my years
I was always to blame
And I dream of this girl
Yeah an angelical ghost
I met her in my neighborhood
I'm a downtown member ???
Don't let me be misunderstood
Oh, I'm a downtown member ???
Don't let me be misunderstood
Heart of gold!!!
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
I said I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold...
at 7:00, i got the call.
at 8:00, i was out the door but found i had a flat tire.
at 9:00, i was on my way out the door with shannon to the airport.
at 10:15, i was up in the air getting to him as fast as i could.
at 12:00, i was at the hospital. david was on life support and not breathing for himself.
at 1:00, after convincing his father that i had to see him, unconscious or not, i go in to see him. i sat by his side for at least 45 minutes. i told him about all of the crazy shit we have still to do together.
i sang him our song, NOFX - Corazon de Oro, and i shit you not, in those minutes i was singing that heart rate of his went back up. but not enough. then it dropped again.
i held his hand. i told him i love him. that he can't die because he is supposed to marry me one day. i called him a loser. and i told him i love him over and over and over.
at 2:30 or so, we pick up dain from the hospital. i have to tell him what has happened. this is not a good moment. we go home, sleepwalk through life, and try to understand.
at 5:30 or so, scott has arrived and my dad gets off the phone with david's father.
at 6:30 or so, my dad tells me that they have taken david off the drugs that are meant to keep his brain from swelling. they are taking him off of life support next. so i call because i want to be there when it happens. david's dad answers the phone.
the conversation:
"hi, dad? it's heather."
"heather?"
"yeah."
"heather, david just passed."
**phone cuts out**
screaming,
"he's dead."
scott, dain, my brother, my mother, my father and i all become hysterical.
and that is how it happened. just as easily as two words: david passed.
and i wasn't fucking there. i had no idea they were going to let him go after only 16 hours. he didn't even get 24 hours to try.
and i wasn't fucking there.
david is a whole lot of things to me. david is my biggest critic, but he is my greatest supporter. he has the biggest flair for making me fucking insane, but he is my best friend. he was supposed to marry me one day, you know? he is, pure and simple, the love of my life. i love that boy with all of my heart.
and now what i can do is just remind everyone of what a crazy awesome bastard he is. make sure everyone knows i love him. make sure he is still alive through all of the amazing things we did. i can make sure everyone who loves him has the chance to let the world know.
and i fucking will.
Corazon de Oro, our version is by NOFX, originally by Rancid.
It's over before it starts
Oh don't you know
So on your marks and stand by
Ready, go
From London to New York, Montreal to Tokyo
I see visions of her everywhere I go
What have I become?
Now that I'm all alone
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul?
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
She only comes once
there to count with her champagne case
She goes straight down the rathole with her
Total recklessness and
Tomorrow will come on through
And I got nothing but a barely mentioned
Nothing but a sillouette girl
Met her in darkness
I say
What have I become?
Now that I'm all alone
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul?
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
I said I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
Yeah I'm in the corner I start over
I start the whole slate clean
All the pain and heartache in all my years
I was always to blame
And I dream of this girl
Yeah an angelical ghost
I met her in my neighborhood
I'm a downtown member ???
Don't let me be misunderstood
Oh, I'm a downtown member ???
Don't let me be misunderstood
Heart of gold!!!
I'm just looking for a way to break through these walls and
I'm just looking for a place that I can call my home and
Is anybody out there got a soul
'Cuz I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold
I said I'm just looking for a girl
The girl with a heart of gold...