What a beautiful God...what am I, that i might be called your child....
I'm tired of feeling this way. I feel like crying or hitting someone all the time now. Almost EVERYONE gets on my nerves and i'm not focusing on God what so every. No joke, like i haven't given him time since all this drama started. I might of fell to my knees and cried out to him, but it meant nothing, nothing changed b/c i'm not helping it too. And i'm tired of just being stuck in this. Everyone i hang out with fights, we can't go one day without arguing about something 50 times. Literally it's not just one person it's every single one of us. I'm ashamed to even say we are Christians b/c that's NOT how we are acting at all and if no one realizes it yet like i do, don't think i am rude. "You're rude" is all i hear these days. I remember when everyone use to be so Uplifting to each other. We would always joke around and just have fun, all hang out together in a big group wherever we were. I remember us going over natalie and curtis' after splashtown one day and we were all just hanging out eating, laughing and then we just bust out in praying and worship...it's never like that anymore. Those were TRUE Christians, all we are now is mearly nothing. We are just walking in, like it's just our way of life. Like it is a daily routeen...it's all we do right? We know nothing else?? NOT...we need to wake up from this so called "life" we are in and start to really focus on God, we're giving him nothing but a problem that he isn't going to fix. Because we aren't putting effort into helping. So Until we ALL ..that's not just you but ME too...until we all can figure out what's wrong with us individually, and until we can start to give our lives TRUELY to God, I'm just not going to have anything to do with it. I'm stepping out, whether i am the only one or everyone does the same, it makes no diffrence until you actually make it the truth. Why don't you try asking God for forgiveness...really..not just b/c that's what all "Christians" do...but really search deep within to ur soul...find ur hiding place and run away.
Run away with God..... ....I'm running away.....
Run away with God..... ....I'm running away.....