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summer time and the livins easy. maybe too easy, ive become unacceptably unproductive. i saw x-men, the da vinci code, and memiors of a giesha. all decent, but x-men kicked by far the most ass. ive been working alot, thats ok i guess. people have come back from college, so ive been socializing more than usual. kids from work keep inviting me to hang out because im so damn cool, and i keep blowing them off. im not sure why, its kinda an asshole thing to do, but its really just been a series of bad timing. but whatever, there all white and sugarlandy, and offer me nothing but inebriation and an audience. theres more to life than that, i hope.
ive decided i want to be a doctor. i dont know if ive mentioned this before, but this is my official public announcement. i want to finish college, go to med school, and work in a hospital. i obviously havent worked out the kinks, but this is the cookie cutter lifestyle ive chosen. i have never made a definite choice as to what i wanted to do with my life, simply because i was afraid if i did, i would be committing to a boring lifestyle, simply following the rules and regulations of everyone else in a sorry attempt to become successful, to go through the motions, to enter this damned real world, and live an uneventful and meaningless life, and then die, with no answers just as every human before me has done. i wanted an unconventional life, i wanted to do things no has ever done before, yes i wanted to be rich and successful, but i didnt want to get there by following the beaten path.
but i had a revelation. it came to me in a dream a few years ago, and im just now realizing the meaning. the details of the dream is unimportant, but the main event is: i was running, from what i dont know, but i found refuge in a hospital, i put on a lab coat, and pretended to be a doctor untill me persuers left. what i came to realize is that while i was in the doctor suit, i felt good. i felt safe. and i figure, if i become a doctor, a respected position in society, i could do anything i want after that. id have credentials, id be deemed an intelligent member of society, and thus given access, to what im not sure of yet. but ill have money, and can therefore sponser any endeavors i wish, whether it be artistry or whatever. its a good choice i think, i just have to put it into action. itll be a shit load of work, but with determination, i can pull it off. despite the common misconseption, im not a total moron.
it wasnt a funny entry, ill do better next time.
ive decided i want to be a doctor. i dont know if ive mentioned this before, but this is my official public announcement. i want to finish college, go to med school, and work in a hospital. i obviously havent worked out the kinks, but this is the cookie cutter lifestyle ive chosen. i have never made a definite choice as to what i wanted to do with my life, simply because i was afraid if i did, i would be committing to a boring lifestyle, simply following the rules and regulations of everyone else in a sorry attempt to become successful, to go through the motions, to enter this damned real world, and live an uneventful and meaningless life, and then die, with no answers just as every human before me has done. i wanted an unconventional life, i wanted to do things no has ever done before, yes i wanted to be rich and successful, but i didnt want to get there by following the beaten path.
but i had a revelation. it came to me in a dream a few years ago, and im just now realizing the meaning. the details of the dream is unimportant, but the main event is: i was running, from what i dont know, but i found refuge in a hospital, i put on a lab coat, and pretended to be a doctor untill me persuers left. what i came to realize is that while i was in the doctor suit, i felt good. i felt safe. and i figure, if i become a doctor, a respected position in society, i could do anything i want after that. id have credentials, id be deemed an intelligent member of society, and thus given access, to what im not sure of yet. but ill have money, and can therefore sponser any endeavors i wish, whether it be artistry or whatever. its a good choice i think, i just have to put it into action. itll be a shit load of work, but with determination, i can pull it off. despite the common misconseption, im not a total moron.
it wasnt a funny entry, ill do better next time.