fighting the past
I remeber when i told everyone that i was gong to change and when i did it was awsome but it took along time for ppl to see it but now im afaired that i am going back in to my old self going back in to the nightmares of my past and now it is trying to tear me apart peice by peice until it nows that theres nothing left of me but sadness but i am trying to fight it but this time am scared im lose the battle and might lose the war because the pain i feel now is sharper then any pain i felt before an it effecting every part of my life even the part that is the love of my life because it is bringing her down but yet she still fights on with me and i hope i can keep fighting and when the war in my head and not lose her