I ask again...WHAT THE FUCK?
So...i leave for a few night and i come back and all hell has gone sprung up.
I left on thursday and got into cali at around ten. My cousin shannon instantly hugged me and said she missed and started crying. I was like...you missed me THAT much/ how could someone miss me that much? Then everyone starts talking about my Uncle Rick (the one who died) and the bitch Osi (his FUCKED up wife). Come to find out that they had a "meeting" and that my grandma would get the urn and osi the ashes. Then osi says no i want you to have it...it's only right that his mother has it. And before my uncle died, he gave this collage that he had made to my mom. So my mom took it. So at the funeral, we go in and the stupid preist is up there and what not, FIFTEEN MINUTES after it had started, in comes the fucking bitch and her BOYFRIEND and her kids who each brought like fucking five friends with them. Their all taling louad and what not...and on the fucking family side we are all crying and trying to listen to my Uncle Franks Eulogy (he's the older brother). And what frank said fucking broke my heart. Then we played a song that Rick sang called the wake that is about being set free. God i broke down crying so hard when i heard his voice...then my cousin shannon started sobbing next to me. It was getting to be to much. Now one thing you have to know is that my WHOLE family is obsessed with Ozzy osbourne. So we played the song "See you on the other side" by him. The fucking priest stands up there and says "I dont'know really what ozzy is trying to sayin that that song and blah blah lbha" i wanted to stand up and say "THENM YOU'RE FUCKING STUPID!" While Frank was speaking...the bitch was laughing with her boyfriend and looking bored. God i wanted to kill her. So the preist gets back up there and he's spouting all this bullshit and i wanted to hit him cause he was preaching...i wanted to yell go to your fucking christian hell!
Anyway...when it was all said and done, one of Rick's kids went up to the collage that my uncle told my mom to take and started to take it down. That started a huge fight thing. And then osi...god...started yelling at my uncle frank...screaming and cussing, saying that we were going to get my uncle's remains. That she's going to press charges if any of us took them. OH MY FUCKING GOD! i wanted to kill her. My mom is sittingin the truck sobbing so hard she can't breathe...and she kept saying "she won't leave him alone...even now." so my uncle Frank said fuck you, i'llget arrested. my grandma thank god talked him out of it. So we got the urn, which we had originally planned. I was so exhausted and so lost that when we got to the after thing, i crashed and slept for like three hours. I kept dreaming about the look on my uncle Jimmy's face (the youngest of the brothers...the order goes my mom Terry, Frank, Rick ~the one who died~ and Jimmy), he looks so young and helpless but not. He put his head in his hands and started sobbing. That made everyone cry even harder. ~sighs~ So yeah...that was the funeral...it was beautiful and my uncle Franks eulogy was so well done...until that fucking cunt showed up. GOD I FUCKING HATE HER! She wasn't even taking care of him! SHE LET HIM FUCKING WASTE AWAY! She woulnd't feed him or anything! He was so fucking helpless! god! you know...it didn't affect me this bad until my mom called me and told me that the herb mixture i had made for him helped. Cause when someone is going on Dialysis...they are supposed to puke their lifes blood. And that's what is his worst fear was...and he didn't...he passed in his sleep. THANK YOU MY LORD AND LADY FOR THAT! That tore me up, so i had to leave work and go home.
So..i come home, all freaking geared up for Oil_Harbour. And find out Ash is still wanting to leave and that she hates it. So i'm lost there, not really knowing what to do or how i'm gonna handle everything. I seriously feel like my head is spinning so fast that i'll collapse when it finally stops. But i'm not gonna pull out. If anything...i'm going to make it better. Cause Oil_Haroubr is my life...i have no life remember?
Sandy
My current Mood you ask?
Enraged, Crushed, drained, depressed, numb, tense, and very very violent.
I left on thursday and got into cali at around ten. My cousin shannon instantly hugged me and said she missed and started crying. I was like...you missed me THAT much/ how could someone miss me that much? Then everyone starts talking about my Uncle Rick (the one who died) and the bitch Osi (his FUCKED up wife). Come to find out that they had a "meeting" and that my grandma would get the urn and osi the ashes. Then osi says no i want you to have it...it's only right that his mother has it. And before my uncle died, he gave this collage that he had made to my mom. So my mom took it. So at the funeral, we go in and the stupid preist is up there and what not, FIFTEEN MINUTES after it had started, in comes the fucking bitch and her BOYFRIEND and her kids who each brought like fucking five friends with them. Their all taling louad and what not...and on the fucking family side we are all crying and trying to listen to my Uncle Franks Eulogy (he's the older brother). And what frank said fucking broke my heart. Then we played a song that Rick sang called the wake that is about being set free. God i broke down crying so hard when i heard his voice...then my cousin shannon started sobbing next to me. It was getting to be to much. Now one thing you have to know is that my WHOLE family is obsessed with Ozzy osbourne. So we played the song "See you on the other side" by him. The fucking priest stands up there and says "I dont'know really what ozzy is trying to sayin that that song and blah blah lbha" i wanted to stand up and say "THENM YOU'RE FUCKING STUPID!" While Frank was speaking...the bitch was laughing with her boyfriend and looking bored. God i wanted to kill her. So the preist gets back up there and he's spouting all this bullshit and i wanted to hit him cause he was preaching...i wanted to yell go to your fucking christian hell!
Anyway...when it was all said and done, one of Rick's kids went up to the collage that my uncle told my mom to take and started to take it down. That started a huge fight thing. And then osi...god...started yelling at my uncle frank...screaming and cussing, saying that we were going to get my uncle's remains. That she's going to press charges if any of us took them. OH MY FUCKING GOD! i wanted to kill her. My mom is sittingin the truck sobbing so hard she can't breathe...and she kept saying "she won't leave him alone...even now." so my uncle Frank said fuck you, i'llget arrested. my grandma thank god talked him out of it. So we got the urn, which we had originally planned. I was so exhausted and so lost that when we got to the after thing, i crashed and slept for like three hours. I kept dreaming about the look on my uncle Jimmy's face (the youngest of the brothers...the order goes my mom Terry, Frank, Rick ~the one who died~ and Jimmy), he looks so young and helpless but not. He put his head in his hands and started sobbing. That made everyone cry even harder. ~sighs~ So yeah...that was the funeral...it was beautiful and my uncle Franks eulogy was so well done...until that fucking cunt showed up. GOD I FUCKING HATE HER! She wasn't even taking care of him! SHE LET HIM FUCKING WASTE AWAY! She woulnd't feed him or anything! He was so fucking helpless! god! you know...it didn't affect me this bad until my mom called me and told me that the herb mixture i had made for him helped. Cause when someone is going on Dialysis...they are supposed to puke their lifes blood. And that's what is his worst fear was...and he didn't...he passed in his sleep. THANK YOU MY LORD AND LADY FOR THAT! That tore me up, so i had to leave work and go home.
So..i come home, all freaking geared up for Oil_Harbour. And find out Ash is still wanting to leave and that she hates it. So i'm lost there, not really knowing what to do or how i'm gonna handle everything. I seriously feel like my head is spinning so fast that i'll collapse when it finally stops. But i'm not gonna pull out. If anything...i'm going to make it better. Cause Oil_Haroubr is my life...i have no life remember?
Sandy
My current Mood you ask?
Enraged, Crushed, drained, depressed, numb, tense, and very very violent.