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No matter who much I want to be a part of a family, I do not want, and simply can not be a part of my family. I can simply be a part of a few of their lives. To submit to my families wishes directly conflicts with my desires. I am no longer a part of them... That was decided when I left my aunts home at 16. I would be a fool to drop all my workings and dreams, just to be a part of a family that makes me feel... unimportant and unaccepted.
None can make your life what you want, other than yourself. So I must at this time remember to take my life in my own hands. Blood ties do not make me feel obligated to stick with them. I have no choice to be born, but I do have a choice in my life to do what I want. We all have to make a sacrifice, but to give up ones happiness is not something I would recommend. I am thankful that I got to meet my younger brother, and other members of my family.. but we are on different paths now. We have grown up on such different roads, and are heading in opposite directions. I guess it is just time for me to face the fact that I am alone in life when it comes to this. In the future I hope that my brothers and sisters can be close.. Even if not physically. I will continue to chase my dreams even if I am unsuccessful.. then I will at least be true to myself, weather I am rich or not. I have faith that my life can be filled with great things and people, as it has been.
None can make your life what you want, other than yourself. So I must at this time remember to take my life in my own hands. Blood ties do not make me feel obligated to stick with them. I have no choice to be born, but I do have a choice in my life to do what I want. We all have to make a sacrifice, but to give up ones happiness is not something I would recommend. I am thankful that I got to meet my younger brother, and other members of my family.. but we are on different paths now. We have grown up on such different roads, and are heading in opposite directions. I guess it is just time for me to face the fact that I am alone in life when it comes to this. In the future I hope that my brothers and sisters can be close.. Even if not physically. I will continue to chase my dreams even if I am unsuccessful.. then I will at least be true to myself, weather I am rich or not. I have faith that my life can be filled with great things and people, as it has been.