Greys Anatomy
So I was watching Grey's Anatomy the other night and there was this pregnant woman in the hospital who was almost due and Dr. Addison had to tell her and her husband that they'd lost their little boy and then they showed her in labor giving birth to the dead baby. It was really sad, and then I was listening to the TV guide podcast this morning and they were discussing the scene and talking about that it was moving but really hard to watch and that it was just a terrible subject matter. Then it hit me.
Oh my god, that happened to my mom when my little brother was stillborn. It's weird because it's just something no one in my family talks about and i had forgotten, which is so weird. I was too little to understand when it happened and I'd thought I'd understood from talking to my mom on the few occasions she answered my questions about it. But thinking about that scene (on a silly tv show of all things) and watching that mom cry from grief and the pain of labor has given me a new perspective on my mother. Like maybe why she is the way she is and maybe a little about my dad too. I just never gave that much thought to the emotional impact of a still birth. And i wonder if my mom ever forgets for a moment and why we don't talk about it.
We each got a christmas ornament when we were born. Every year my mom hands out the ornaments and delegates who gets to hang hers and dad's ornaments, Dad sits in a chair and is grumpy in usual dad fashion. She doesnt hang any ornaments, except for the baby's. And her eyes always glaze over.
So I need to be more mindful of the feelings of those around me. And maybe once and a while think about how strong my mom is and about my other little brother, whose name was Ronald.
Oh my god, that happened to my mom when my little brother was stillborn. It's weird because it's just something no one in my family talks about and i had forgotten, which is so weird. I was too little to understand when it happened and I'd thought I'd understood from talking to my mom on the few occasions she answered my questions about it. But thinking about that scene (on a silly tv show of all things) and watching that mom cry from grief and the pain of labor has given me a new perspective on my mother. Like maybe why she is the way she is and maybe a little about my dad too. I just never gave that much thought to the emotional impact of a still birth. And i wonder if my mom ever forgets for a moment and why we don't talk about it.
We each got a christmas ornament when we were born. Every year my mom hands out the ornaments and delegates who gets to hang hers and dad's ornaments, Dad sits in a chair and is grumpy in usual dad fashion. She doesnt hang any ornaments, except for the baby's. And her eyes always glaze over.
So I need to be more mindful of the feelings of those around me. And maybe once and a while think about how strong my mom is and about my other little brother, whose name was Ronald.