can't you see......
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ok now if i had really done that outloud... that might have made me feel a lil bit better. oh well.... i never knew that caring so much for someone... could affect me this way. knowing that something's wrong and he's not talking to me because he doesn't want to snap at me. knowing that all i want to do is give him a big hug; hold him; let him know that everything will be alright. let him know that i'm here... no matter what. i want to listen to him... let him vent.. it hurts. it hurts so much. everytime i think about him.... lately.. and acknowledge the big void that not having him in my life has left... tears.... my heart... hurts.. pain...
i close tonight. on a lighter note. i close with robert. and i'm excited. him and alex are my 2 favorite people to work with. aside from shirley. i love working with her, too. i gotta go watch another movie so they're not late... LOTR: The Two Towers. sooooooooooooo amazing. i loved it! gimli, the dwarf. he makes me laugh!! he's so adorable. and i will never forget grace saying that he reminds her of my dad. HAHAHHAHAHA
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ok now if i had really done that outloud... that might have made me feel a lil bit better. oh well.... i never knew that caring so much for someone... could affect me this way. knowing that something's wrong and he's not talking to me because he doesn't want to snap at me. knowing that all i want to do is give him a big hug; hold him; let him know that everything will be alright. let him know that i'm here... no matter what. i want to listen to him... let him vent.. it hurts. it hurts so much. everytime i think about him.... lately.. and acknowledge the big void that not having him in my life has left... tears.... my heart... hurts.. pain...
i close tonight. on a lighter note. i close with robert. and i'm excited. him and alex are my 2 favorite people to work with. aside from shirley. i love working with her, too. i gotta go watch another movie so they're not late... LOTR: The Two Towers. sooooooooooooo amazing. i loved it! gimli, the dwarf. he makes me laugh!! he's so adorable. and i will never forget grace saying that he reminds her of my dad. HAHAHHAHAHA