A Rachael Update
I don't even know where to start anymore. Firstly, money absolutely sucks. We never have what we need to just pay the fuckin bills and feel good about it. That should be solved as of next week. "I'm in debt up to my eyeballs". I'm just plain drowning. But anyways, I just don't know what to do anymore...I want to be happy in my relationship now. The thing is, I have wants and needs. I need more attention. I need more sex. I need to hear how gorgeous I am. I want more attention/sex/and praise. It kinda sucks when you can't remember the last time your beau said you were pretty or even the last time you had sex or even fooled around. And it sucks when everyone else who literally mean nothing to you compliment you more than he. What's a girl to do? I try to have convos with him about this...but he insists that, baby, you are everything i've ever wanted in ALL ways. Prove it. Even with these other life issues we all have, we STILL HAVE EACHOTHER. If he loses me over this...then I'm gone, too. I don't want to be one of those miserable couples who are together for the convenience it provides. All I've ever asked for is honesty. If your feelings have changed, TELL Me to my cute lil face. Nothing more, nothing less. That's what I at least expect.
I want to try and write more in here. It's like a resource that I forget I even have. Regardless, it felt good. <3
I want to try and write more in here. It's like a resource that I forget I even have. Regardless, it felt good. <3