Blood Will Always Be Thicker Than Water
i just had a really good talk with my brother, we talked for over 3 hours and got a lot of stuff off our chests, i love him so much and i hope he gets better soon, we both feel like we've grown apart the past year or so and we miss how we used to be, we weren't just siblings we were best friends, hes still in the hospital, and will probably be there for another week or so, he's had three surgeries in the past week, i hope he gets better soon, he sounds much better than he was on sunday, he was going up to get the bag reversed, they were supposed to connect his small intestine to his rectum, but when they went in there they found out the rectum was also diseased and they had to remove it and create a new one with a part of the small intestine, and then create a j pouch, they had to leave the stoma so that his other parts could heal and next month hes supposed to get that reversed, he was doing well for the first day or so but then on saturday night he called me up crying and in pain, he knew something was wrong and i told him i'd drive up to see him on sunday and he asked me to bring his gf jen with me, which i did and she turned out to be really nice, i like her best out of all the girls he's dated, i think she'll be really good for him, while we were there he had two cat scans done to see what was going on, and why he was in so much pain, the results were not good, he was going to need another surgery, at one point the doctor had us leave the room because he wanted to check if the stoma was opened at the surface, basically what they thought was going on was that there was a kink in it and it needed to be fixed, if it was near the surface and the stoma was closed he could open it with his finger and they could avoid the surgery, my brother asked to be sedated and they said no, we stepped out into the hall and we just heard my brother screaming for them to stop, that he coudlnt breathe but they wouldn't stop, we all started crying, it was so painful to hear him in so much pain, he told me he felt like he was going into shock, they had to do another surgery on him, i was so afraid something was going to happen, it was horrible, i coudln't stop crying as much as i tried, they finally came to get him and we went down to the surgery area and they talked to us about the anesthesia and everything and he was good hands bla bla bla, had us say our good byes, i was so afraid something terrible would happen to him, i didnt want to leave but i had to because i started advanced training at work early the next day and i'd be fired if i didnt come in, i was a mess, i called my mom and george a lot yesterday to see how everything went and so far so good, and i talked to my brother a few times today on my breaks, and then called him when i got out for over 3 hours, just about how we were both feeling about certain things, how we missed each other and that we cared about each other, for some reason or another we grew apart and we don't want to be like that, we were always so close, he told me he knows how depressed i've been for a while and that he just wants me to be happy again because when i was happy, he'd be happy because he'd get his best friend back, we were both crying and talking about all that, and promised each other we'd never get this way again, i love my brother so much, i don't know what i'd do without him, we fight a lot yes, but we're closer than any siblings that i know, because we're not just that we are best friends and i hate to think about how much time i've spent feeling sorry for myself and missing out on time with him, i don't know i'd do if something happened to him, no one will ever be there for me like he will and vice versa, when it comes down to the most important things we're always there for each other, we've gone through things together and seen things that no one will ever know, we've protected each other since we were old enough to do it, from our crazy family to ourselves, we both got to change some things in our lives that we discussed and we promised to help each other out, we're not going to turn into the family that barely know each other, we always made people jealous because we were so close, and i plan to continue to do that for a long time