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my brain is scattered {smothered, covered, diced, chopped...}
everything is blury right now.
i cant orgainize my thoughts.
school is slipping away from me.
its harder for me to want to work.
i would rather sit here and put forth all of my energy and effort into my art classes.
why do i keep changing like that?
why am i so motivated one day,
and then the next not even able to remember to write a paper?
i wish so badly that i could go back and spend the last 6 months of my life wisely.
i wish i would have spent my mondays & thursdays at tumbling rather than skipping it to waste time with that someone who i thought i wanted to be with.
why was i so stupid?
i knew for so long that i wasnt happy...
why didn't i act sooner?
once i did what i did,
my problems went away.
life became fun again.
it became easy again.
it/i became enjoyable again.
all of that makes me question my judgment...
i know what i want to put my effort into now.
december i started heading in the right direction again>>>>>> i just suffered from a 6 month detour
right now im doing alot of thinking and alot of questioning.....
its good for me to just sit back and analyze every now and then.
everything is blury right now.
i cant orgainize my thoughts.
school is slipping away from me.
its harder for me to want to work.
i would rather sit here and put forth all of my energy and effort into my art classes.
why do i keep changing like that?
why am i so motivated one day,
and then the next not even able to remember to write a paper?
i wish so badly that i could go back and spend the last 6 months of my life wisely.
i wish i would have spent my mondays & thursdays at tumbling rather than skipping it to waste time with that someone who i thought i wanted to be with.
why was i so stupid?
i knew for so long that i wasnt happy...
why didn't i act sooner?
once i did what i did,
my problems went away.
life became fun again.
it became easy again.
it/i became enjoyable again.
all of that makes me question my judgment...
i know what i want to put my effort into now.
december i started heading in the right direction again>>>>>> i just suffered from a 6 month detour
right now im doing alot of thinking and alot of questioning.....
its good for me to just sit back and analyze every now and then.