i don't know
i don't know whats wrong with me. I'm freaking out about everything and I just feel so apart from everyone. I can't stand being at home, i dont want to be at school and the one place i can stand to be for a while is ending next friday. i guess i have more but ugh. my head is just crazy. i feel so angry all the time so paranoid. maybe it's all in my head. i dunno.
i miss cesar. God i miss him so fucking much. i dunno. i just my life doesnt function without just being in his presence, his shirt doesn't smell like him anymore it's going away. it makes me sad. i need to take another shirt. i hope i get to see him soon since today didnt work out.
it'll work out. i just hope i dont stay awake all night waiting for him to call me.
i miss cesar. God i miss him so fucking much. i dunno. i just my life doesnt function without just being in his presence, his shirt doesn't smell like him anymore it's going away. it makes me sad. i need to take another shirt. i hope i get to see him soon since today didnt work out.
it'll work out. i just hope i dont stay awake all night waiting for him to call me.