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As the days to work commencement at EY draw nearer, the more apprehensive I feel about the choice I've made. Have been thinking a lot about the future these few days.
Interests, doing what one is good at or money?
Went for the CFA talk on Thur and it made me rethink my decision. As I listened to the speaker, I looked at the people around. The immediate question that came to my head was, "Why are all these people here?"
The most logical and instinctive answer came. Money.
Then I asked myself. Am I here for that too? Probably so. Like what Huimin said, "Banking and finance is sexy la"
Of course there are people who are genuinely interested in finance. That I can't deny.
So what I am interested in? This I am pretty certain. I'm interested in music and social work. But interests for me will always remain interests. They could hardly ever be my rice bowl. When interests become work, I doubt they would still be as interesting as interests. Won't want to kill the beauty of my interests.
Then comes, what am I good at? That I really don't know. I can only say that I am definitely no good academically, relative to the peers in school that is. Some people think that I must be someone who can do well quite easily given my type of character. But sad to say, I really don't live up to the name others conjure for me.
Now I must admit, I'm sorta drawn to choosing my career based on money as the decision criteria. Pretty sad, ain't it? With all the different forms of pressure coming on me, I can't help but think "Oh this requires money. So I need to earn more."
I am afraid. Because I am aware of what is happening to me. If I continue to think this way, I will never be satisfied with my job. I will never be satisfied with my pay. I will never be satisfied with my life.
Interests, doing what one is good at or money?
Went for the CFA talk on Thur and it made me rethink my decision. As I listened to the speaker, I looked at the people around. The immediate question that came to my head was, "Why are all these people here?"
The most logical and instinctive answer came. Money.
Then I asked myself. Am I here for that too? Probably so. Like what Huimin said, "Banking and finance is sexy la"
Of course there are people who are genuinely interested in finance. That I can't deny.
So what I am interested in? This I am pretty certain. I'm interested in music and social work. But interests for me will always remain interests. They could hardly ever be my rice bowl. When interests become work, I doubt they would still be as interesting as interests. Won't want to kill the beauty of my interests.
Then comes, what am I good at? That I really don't know. I can only say that I am definitely no good academically, relative to the peers in school that is. Some people think that I must be someone who can do well quite easily given my type of character. But sad to say, I really don't live up to the name others conjure for me.
Now I must admit, I'm sorta drawn to choosing my career based on money as the decision criteria. Pretty sad, ain't it? With all the different forms of pressure coming on me, I can't help but think "Oh this requires money. So I need to earn more."
I am afraid. Because I am aware of what is happening to me. If I continue to think this way, I will never be satisfied with my job. I will never be satisfied with my pay. I will never be satisfied with my life.