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im so fucking upset i hate myself more then anyone could know i put on a happy face because thats what people want they dont want to know your heartaches you do not know how badly i want to die how i want to change my life or end it i just took 2 stacker 3 with ephedra and 2 lipodrene downed them with diet green tea i dont even care if they kill me i want to feel okay but im not going to tell anyone because all it does is offend like they made a bad choice in choosing me i feel sick and life is causing me to do this no life isnt i am im not strong enough im tired of being strong i want someone to strong for me i want this pain to stop i want to be okay but i know i wont becuase i have so many responsibilities to take care of thats really why i dont end it all now the squeeky wheel gets the oil but i dont the luxery to make a sound becuase i am less then and always will be im very observate and i listen to what people say and watch their actions i know when they dont add what to believe im so sad no one umnderstands i live in a world where the senative are considered weak and therfore walked all over i live in a world where compassion is abused and the person is neglected i live in a world where its so loud that no one hear the crys from the silent