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I feel weird writing uner this guy. It's kind of ironic don't you think? You are such a good friend. It almost brings me to tears whenever I think of all we have been through. I love you so much and I never want to lose you. You have done so much for me. You stood by my side when others had fallen. You encouraged me when I get down on myslef. Without you I seriously don't know what I would do. I would be lonely, forgotten, or I wouldn't have "changed". I wouldn't be myself. I'd be some punk kid with no hopes, no dreams, no true thoughts. You have not only given me a friend, but true freedom and true happiness. I'm sick of complaining about friends leaving me. I have you and you are all that matters. I love you so much it's hard to describe. I hope we never lose touch and I hope I never hurt you in anyway. You're everything I could of asked for...your're everything to me right now.
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So the show Saturday was amazing. And everything is awesome. I'm sort of even enjoying school..which I know is totally not teen at all...but it's pretty tyte. Max Beal and I are becoming really close again which is such a relief because he means so much to me. Sam McDonald is the radest best friend ever and I love having sex with her. Lohman and I are going to have a rave sometime which totally pumps me up. And Stephen...well...we're going to go to jail tomorrow night because he's 18 and I'm only 16 and we're going to be sexing at Foelinger Theatre. But it will be totally worth it.
I came across something tonight which made me really sad. So much has changed from what was said. And I know change is inevitable, but I feel the same and always have. I don't want to be told what I want to hear anymore.
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So the show Saturday was amazing. And everything is awesome. I'm sort of even enjoying school..which I know is totally not teen at all...but it's pretty tyte. Max Beal and I are becoming really close again which is such a relief because he means so much to me. Sam McDonald is the radest best friend ever and I love having sex with her. Lohman and I are going to have a rave sometime which totally pumps me up. And Stephen...well...we're going to go to jail tomorrow night because he's 18 and I'm only 16 and we're going to be sexing at Foelinger Theatre. But it will be totally worth it.
I came across something tonight which made me really sad. So much has changed from what was said. And I know change is inevitable, but I feel the same and always have. I don't want to be told what I want to hear anymore.