"this car hears my confessions"
i was thinking last night about how much i regret fooling around with tyler. i truly think scott and i would still be together that whole situation hadn't occured. i've known tyler since fucking 11th grade. and i always disliked him. i hate saying that i was friends with him because i felt sorry for him. and what does that say about me making out with him? i did it to make scott jealous. to make him pay attention. to get him to KISS me. and it ruined the whole thing we had going.
now, i've ruined a relationship and a friendship. tyler avoids me at all costs ever since we let it go pretty far, then i backed out. why do i do that. i know i'm not ready to have sex, but i lead guys on ALLTHETIME. i miss his friendship because he was always there to listen to me complain about scott and such. and doing that hurt scott a lot. i made him cry SOMANYTIMES because of my mistakes. i am so reckless with peoples' feelings sometimes. making out fucks up everything.
now, i've ruined a relationship and a friendship. tyler avoids me at all costs ever since we let it go pretty far, then i backed out. why do i do that. i know i'm not ready to have sex, but i lead guys on ALLTHETIME. i miss his friendship because he was always there to listen to me complain about scott and such. and doing that hurt scott a lot. i made him cry SOMANYTIMES because of my mistakes. i am so reckless with peoples' feelings sometimes. making out fucks up everything.