the truth be told, i'm never gonna know

[thepantsdance]

yesterday was better than today. i was wondering how come it hurts so bad when i was thinking about doing it too...only i hadn't got the courage yet. maybe because my reasons were so different than his. i don't think i've ever been in a relationship where it seemed fine but turns out we were both on different pages pretty much the whole time. for awhile it really seemed like it was going to work out but what do i know? apparently not much, about boys anyway. i have a whole lot that i want to say to him but i'm not going to bother, because i really don't think it matters. that was the weirdest/fastest thing that ever happened to me.

turns out the saw doctors is on saturday which means i can't go :(