Birthday on the horizon
Blah. I've been so depressed the past few weeks.
First my dad is the supreme crusher of dreams.
Second some of my online friends think IVu isn't real the real IVu ( and he is one of my closest online friends) so I'm sad about the possiblity that he is fake.
My mom is evil and abuses me emotionally.
School is awful.
I still don't know about what is going on with the Dir En Grey concert. BLAH! I want to go so badly, but......
I still to find someone to take me and my friend. Plus we will have to stay over in the city for the night to avoid all the driving. Plus I still wanna get something nice to wear. I might have to sew it myself.
My Birthday is coming up soon. I went shopping with my grandparents when they visited last weekend. I got a lot of cute/cool stuff and I am so glad and grateful. Especially since my grandma had hurt her ankle some time before.
After my birthday I will be able to start working at Publix and perhaps be able to suppose my hobbies better. Which is a good thing. Very much a good thing. I'm sick of mooching off my parents and grandparents.
But I'm still not happy. I wish I was feeling as happy and carefree as I was in the summer. There is just something missing in my life and I don't know what it is. I feel like I'm more distant from my friends and listening to my favorite songs just doesn't have an effect anymore. Maybe I'm just in a depression. I need something very important and exciting to turn my frown upside down.
Can you make me smile?
First my dad is the supreme crusher of dreams.
Second some of my online friends think IVu isn't real the real IVu ( and he is one of my closest online friends) so I'm sad about the possiblity that he is fake.
My mom is evil and abuses me emotionally.
School is awful.
I still don't know about what is going on with the Dir En Grey concert. BLAH! I want to go so badly, but......
I still to find someone to take me and my friend. Plus we will have to stay over in the city for the night to avoid all the driving. Plus I still wanna get something nice to wear. I might have to sew it myself.
My Birthday is coming up soon. I went shopping with my grandparents when they visited last weekend. I got a lot of cute/cool stuff and I am so glad and grateful. Especially since my grandma had hurt her ankle some time before.
After my birthday I will be able to start working at Publix and perhaps be able to suppose my hobbies better. Which is a good thing. Very much a good thing. I'm sick of mooching off my parents and grandparents.
But I'm still not happy. I wish I was feeling as happy and carefree as I was in the summer. There is just something missing in my life and I don't know what it is. I feel like I'm more distant from my friends and listening to my favorite songs just doesn't have an effect anymore. Maybe I'm just in a depression. I need something very important and exciting to turn my frown upside down.
Can you make me smile?