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my internet decided to be a jackass today and not work properly. i have a sociology report due tomorrow and finally..FINALLY it decides to play nice and work around 9:00...psh...but here's the real kicker. not only did i have to stress out about it all day i go to print it and the fucking printer won't print. what is it with me and electronics lately?
psh.
so i didn't really get to talk to roy yesterday because of my mouse...it crapped out on me just as i started playing counter-strike...i had to randomly log off..and by the time i got back on (like 2.5 hours later) my loveliness was off of aim. boo. he was probably on cs..but i couldn't log on the server..it was full.
and tonight..i haven't spoken to him either. he's on cs right now, and has been for like 5.5 hours lol. i checked out the people on the server and it lists all of their times and kills and whatnot. interesting stalker-ish stuff...hahaha. i tried to log on tonight..but i suppose his friend is on right now because the cd key he gave me is already in use. *two thumbs down* i just want to talk to my lovely.
bob is going to be here next week. i'm getting anxious. i can't wait. he'll actually get to see my room! ..which isn't much..but atleast he'll have that memory. he'll glimpse my surroundings like i did his. mm..oh! and i figured out why starcraft wouldn't work for us...my expansion pack cd isn't working so i had to uninstall brood war...if we want to play together you have to be playing on the original starcraft. so we'll know for next time <3
i miss kristen and i'm afraid i won't be able to see her this summer. that makes me sniffle...i'm hoping that, perhaps, i can fly out there and visit her. i have yet to discuss it with the parents though...we'll see..we'll see.
i talked with pia tonight, it was the first time in a long time. i miss her lots, too.
i miss brian but not as much as i did. i can actually listen to the cranberries and not cry. heh..i think i'm healing..finally. i don't delve into the far reaches of my mind for fond memories anymore...i'd rather focus on the present and future and create new ones with my boyfriend right now.
roy..ah..i feel like our conversation relationship, our lovely discussions, i feel like they've slipped away. we're so focused on our emotions for each other that we haven't really discussed anything else in a very long time. i miss the way things used to be when he wasn't afraid to tell me everything...when he would discuss what ails him and i would help him. i miss the friendly arguments and the opposing opinions. i miss being able to beat him in a hardcore discussion..make him see my point...and give up after he was out of comebacks. i miss that...i miss being his friend...now i feel like i am his detached prize; something to be protected and guarded...something that he so desperately doesn't want to lose that he says nothing that will even remotely make me stray or think poorly. i've never looked down upon him; he's always been intelligent and reasonable in his opinions. don't get me wrong, i love our emotional stuff...i love being near him and telling him he's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. i love the way he won't touch me unless it's a sweet carress or a gentle huggle.
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raggedxdolly: of course :-) omg..though..this morning my dad was like "i just want him to know that he can't test-drive you before he buys you."
raggedxdolly: i was like....omaoisjdflkasdjflkasjflksfjlsakdfjslk omg omg omg
raggedxdolly: i can't believe you just said that!!!
xForlorN AngeLx: heh heh heh
xForlorN AngeLx: Dodge doesnt allow ppl to just test-drive vipers
xForlorN AngeLx: and ive always wanted a viper
raggedxdolly: i've always wanted a corvette <3
xForlorN AngeLx): theres a relation between what your dad said, and what i said about the viper
raggedxdolly: i'm trying to see it.
xForlorN AngeLx: theres a loss for words on my part right now
xForlorN AngeLx: i have the thoughts, just too many of em for words
raggedxdolly: hmm...well i'd like to know what your thoughts are...start at the most basic and work up...
xForlorN AngeLx: hmmmm
xForlorN AngeLx: id rather marry you and be with you forever than a hit-and-quit type thing
xForlorN AngeLx: that the jist
xForlorN AngeLx: i couldnt imagine a lifetime without you
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you sure know how to make a girl feel special.
<3
x.x
psh.
so i didn't really get to talk to roy yesterday because of my mouse...it crapped out on me just as i started playing counter-strike...i had to randomly log off..and by the time i got back on (like 2.5 hours later) my loveliness was off of aim. boo. he was probably on cs..but i couldn't log on the server..it was full.
and tonight..i haven't spoken to him either. he's on cs right now, and has been for like 5.5 hours lol. i checked out the people on the server and it lists all of their times and kills and whatnot. interesting stalker-ish stuff...hahaha. i tried to log on tonight..but i suppose his friend is on right now because the cd key he gave me is already in use. *two thumbs down* i just want to talk to my lovely.
bob is going to be here next week. i'm getting anxious. i can't wait. he'll actually get to see my room! ..which isn't much..but atleast he'll have that memory. he'll glimpse my surroundings like i did his. mm..oh! and i figured out why starcraft wouldn't work for us...my expansion pack cd isn't working so i had to uninstall brood war...if we want to play together you have to be playing on the original starcraft. so we'll know for next time <3
i miss kristen and i'm afraid i won't be able to see her this summer. that makes me sniffle...i'm hoping that, perhaps, i can fly out there and visit her. i have yet to discuss it with the parents though...we'll see..we'll see.
i talked with pia tonight, it was the first time in a long time. i miss her lots, too.
i miss brian but not as much as i did. i can actually listen to the cranberries and not cry. heh..i think i'm healing..finally. i don't delve into the far reaches of my mind for fond memories anymore...i'd rather focus on the present and future and create new ones with my boyfriend right now.
roy..ah..i feel like our conversation relationship, our lovely discussions, i feel like they've slipped away. we're so focused on our emotions for each other that we haven't really discussed anything else in a very long time. i miss the way things used to be when he wasn't afraid to tell me everything...when he would discuss what ails him and i would help him. i miss the friendly arguments and the opposing opinions. i miss being able to beat him in a hardcore discussion..make him see my point...and give up after he was out of comebacks. i miss that...i miss being his friend...now i feel like i am his detached prize; something to be protected and guarded...something that he so desperately doesn't want to lose that he says nothing that will even remotely make me stray or think poorly. i've never looked down upon him; he's always been intelligent and reasonable in his opinions. don't get me wrong, i love our emotional stuff...i love being near him and telling him he's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. i love the way he won't touch me unless it's a sweet carress or a gentle huggle.
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raggedxdolly: of course :-) omg..though..this morning my dad was like "i just want him to know that he can't test-drive you before he buys you."
raggedxdolly: i was like....omaoisjdflkasdjflkasjflksfjlsakdfjslk omg omg omg
raggedxdolly: i can't believe you just said that!!!
xForlorN AngeLx: heh heh heh
xForlorN AngeLx: Dodge doesnt allow ppl to just test-drive vipers
xForlorN AngeLx: and ive always wanted a viper
raggedxdolly: i've always wanted a corvette <3
xForlorN AngeLx): theres a relation between what your dad said, and what i said about the viper
raggedxdolly: i'm trying to see it.
xForlorN AngeLx: theres a loss for words on my part right now
xForlorN AngeLx: i have the thoughts, just too many of em for words
raggedxdolly: hmm...well i'd like to know what your thoughts are...start at the most basic and work up...
xForlorN AngeLx: hmmmm
xForlorN AngeLx: id rather marry you and be with you forever than a hit-and-quit type thing
xForlorN AngeLx: that the jist
xForlorN AngeLx: i couldnt imagine a lifetime without you
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you sure know how to make a girl feel special.
<3
x.x