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so im playing guitar before class starts, and im showing off and shit, and "the girl" is all non-responsive. i try to act like nothing happened and we're still just friends, and i'm like, okay maybe im not totally in the right, or im thinking that anyway. but still, i don't want this to be such a bitch.
later in the day i pass by her and im like high, and this fool doesn't even glance. i felt like rejected all over again. so i started thinking about it from her perspective, and i could imagine how awkward she feels and how i fucked it all up, or maybe she feels guilty for some fucked up reason.
and the worst part is, i pulled the EXACT same act on baylee. but at least i can understand that i just didn't want to deal with closing the relationship because i felt guilty for breaking up, and maybe she feels like that.
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so, basically, i have two options.
1) i pursue this relationship lika mug
2) i cut my losses, and try to repair the friendship
so the smart thing to do is try to repair the friendship and take it for what its worth. but i mean, haven't we learned anything from movies? i chose this person for a reason, because i'd rather have them then anybody else.
but from a realist's standpoint, what if my mad charm skillz fall through and i don't even have the friendship.
then of course, theres this whole what-does-she-want side of it all.
so im playing guitar before class starts, and im showing off and shit, and "the girl" is all non-responsive. i try to act like nothing happened and we're still just friends, and i'm like, okay maybe im not totally in the right, or im thinking that anyway. but still, i don't want this to be such a bitch.
later in the day i pass by her and im like high, and this fool doesn't even glance. i felt like rejected all over again. so i started thinking about it from her perspective, and i could imagine how awkward she feels and how i fucked it all up, or maybe she feels guilty for some fucked up reason.
and the worst part is, i pulled the EXACT same act on baylee. but at least i can understand that i just didn't want to deal with closing the relationship because i felt guilty for breaking up, and maybe she feels like that.
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so, basically, i have two options.
1) i pursue this relationship lika mug
2) i cut my losses, and try to repair the friendship
so the smart thing to do is try to repair the friendship and take it for what its worth. but i mean, haven't we learned anything from movies? i chose this person for a reason, because i'd rather have them then anybody else.
but from a realist's standpoint, what if my mad charm skillz fall through and i don't even have the friendship.
then of course, theres this whole what-does-she-want side of it all.