Feb 21, 2004 22:01
rejected!
so im like, yeah i gotta ask you, do you want to go out with me, in a girlfriend-boyfriend, significent other sort of way. And her words exactly, "I'm not looking for a boyfriend right now." FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK! I don't know what to say. I was so sure that for some reason she'd say sure. Honestly, i don't believe that line for a second. I don't mean i want it to be true or untrue. I don't give a shit, really. I just want her. FUCK MAN! what does that mean anyway, not looking? This is why gay relationships have lower spousal abuse than lesibian or heterosexual couples! Because its a relationship where there are no grudges, no drawn-out arguements, everybody likes the same thing, and everybody is down to bang! FUCK!!!!!!! I hate this so much. i can't believe it. i feel so cheated for making all this effort for nothing, and now it'll be uber-hard to talk to her. now i'll end up being uber-nice to her just to try to make it like its nothing. so basically ive put our relationship on the line, with a seriously good friend, for blankness. FUCCCKKKK!
I need to learn how to deal with rejection or something