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[theotherhalf419]

screw it. i just want to let it all out. i want to do one of those hate lists but me being me i would just wake up tomorrow morning and delete it cuz ill feel bad. but im tired of feeling bad for shit that isnt my fault. I hate so many things right now and people. you know what ill give it a try. I hate people who say one thing to you and then go and tell their friends a whole other story. I hate people who tell you they care when really if u got a hit by a bus they wouldnt give 2 shits. I hate people who lie to me. I hate that no matter how many bad things you do or say i still want you. I hate that i like you i wish i hated you. I hate having to try so hard for things that come so easily to people who dont deserve them. I hate being told to get over you even tho those people r right. I hate that all the other good ones r taken buy lucky chicks. I hate that you dont understand or even care. I hate how i changed thinking it would get me somewhere. I hate not being true to myself. I hate always being the fricken third wheel. I hate how i feel alone. I hate how i let people walk all over me. I hate that you think things that arent true. I hate that you think its all okay. I hate that all of my friends get you but i dont. I hate how lucky my best friends r and i dont get anything. I ahte that i have all these feelings. I hate how i cant tell you this to your face. I hate how i look cuz obviously it'll never be good enuff for anyone especialy you. I hate how someone is just assuming most of this is about them. I hate you. I hate him. I hate her. I hate them. I hate myself for writing this. I hate how i feel bad at this very moment. I hate how i cry over things that r so stupid like you. I hate the fact that for once in my life i felt somewhat condfident that i may have a chance and then i went back to being my old self. I hate how i wont give up. i hate that my parents yell at me for being me. I ahte how they blame me. I hate how they lie to me. I hate how they yell.I hate that im apologizing, im sorry. im sorry im not what your looking for. im sorry for writing this and if youve read this much then just forget all that uve read. its worthless and no matter what ill feel the same.

im sorry
by the way when i say "you" i mean alot of different people not just one.