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Haven't updated this one in a while so. Here I am, it's Sunday which means it's the end of another really boring weekend. Erika was supposed to come see me on Friday and then backed out again, I'm seriously over that whole situation, I mean why do I bother? Bea wanted me to go to Tobacco Co. that night but I didnt want to drive all the way down town (not 2 minutes away anymore) cuz I wouldnt be able to drink or anything and get myself all the way back home afterwards, and all alone too. I came soooo close to hoping in the car and driving to Nova that night, so what if George was working at least I wouldn't have been all bummed, bored and alone, and I could have gotten sloshed at the bar...next time I will go.
Saturday was cool, went to the pool with Jess who thankfully i've been seeing a little more of lately. And last night I did stuff around the apartment and then went and rented a girly movie and hada quiet night in. Still kinda feel like I have no friends but I guess that's my own fault huh? Bea is in the city with no way to get to me, Kate is around here somewhere but works a lot and still has other friends she hangs around with, Nelson is gone and when she gets home she has Brian, Jess has John, the people from work are all older than me (closest is like 27) or married, Lacey is 6 months pregnant and doesn't go out as much, Erika is only 45 minutes away but is either working or bails out on me everytime. So yeah... it's just me.
I keep telling myself once George is here we'll go out together and meet people and make new friends and stuff. I'm too shy to do that all by myself, most girls don't really like me, and I always feel weird meeting new guys cuz I don't want them to get the wrong idea you know? George told me to go to a movie and out for a drink afterwards last night, all alone. Yeah right! I could have done the movie, but not the drink and you can't really meet someone new and talk during a movie.
I wish I was more brave, maybe then I could get MYSELF out of this box, but until then everyone else should feel free to try. Right now I am actually off to Bath and Body Works to help with floorset for a while, largely becuase I have absolutely nothing else to do.
Saturday was cool, went to the pool with Jess who thankfully i've been seeing a little more of lately. And last night I did stuff around the apartment and then went and rented a girly movie and hada quiet night in. Still kinda feel like I have no friends but I guess that's my own fault huh? Bea is in the city with no way to get to me, Kate is around here somewhere but works a lot and still has other friends she hangs around with, Nelson is gone and when she gets home she has Brian, Jess has John, the people from work are all older than me (closest is like 27) or married, Lacey is 6 months pregnant and doesn't go out as much, Erika is only 45 minutes away but is either working or bails out on me everytime. So yeah... it's just me.
I keep telling myself once George is here we'll go out together and meet people and make new friends and stuff. I'm too shy to do that all by myself, most girls don't really like me, and I always feel weird meeting new guys cuz I don't want them to get the wrong idea you know? George told me to go to a movie and out for a drink afterwards last night, all alone. Yeah right! I could have done the movie, but not the drink and you can't really meet someone new and talk during a movie.
I wish I was more brave, maybe then I could get MYSELF out of this box, but until then everyone else should feel free to try. Right now I am actually off to Bath and Body Works to help with floorset for a while, largely becuase I have absolutely nothing else to do.