Here and back... again
Well Christmas has come and gone. And I can't help but feel as if, it's getting a bit to... same old same old. There was dinner, the usual parental plee for me to come to church, the same old presents. The kind I can't figure out why my mother thought I would like... let alone buy for me. The same old embarassing penguin pajamas... and this time with fuzzy socks to match. How old will I have to get before my Mom will stop buying me this stuff? That I will smile at as I unwrap and then turn around and give to the goodwill the next time I clean out my closet... I wonder, when they will discover the magic of the gift certificate so that I can make my own bad fashion decisions. There was however that one gift that's prfect, this year it was a beautiful Neptune's garden Topaz necklace from my parents, and of course the typical cutesy gifts from George that make me smile.
It was the same old family drama... no one capable of making a decision, no one able to set plans. It was the same old having to sleep alone in my bed with a snuggly boy a mile away because of my stupid parents... and today it was the same old drive home. With people braking to a complete stop over nothing.... or was it the sun... or the fact that 95 dared to make a turn... I know... it's scary. I mean how dare the road not be a perfect straight away.
And as always I was eager to get home to Richmond. I like going up there for visits less and less as time goes on. I've lived here long enough to call it home (which my mother hates) a luxury I haven't had for years. And with my parent's living it yet another new house, I am one again an outsider, I can't find so much as a spoon in the kitchen and the room called "mine" is an empty receptical for all my things that aren't there. Empty dressers, a bare desk and decor I didn't pick. Aside from that, there is nothing left there for me but George and my parent's. And even when I am there I can't help but feel as if my presence in not appreciated, activites go on uninterrupted, conversation is half heartedly attempted. After all there are movies to be watched and rooms to be painted... who am I to stand in the way.
Anyhow... that is enough ranting for now. At lease I am back in Richmond for a few days and the next time I go home it will be to catch a flight to VEGAS BABY! I just have to make it thru the next few crazy days of January Sale at work... I work 5-close tonight and then till the dawn of time for floor set... I've already drank coffee and 4 PM so it's not looking good.
It was the same old family drama... no one capable of making a decision, no one able to set plans. It was the same old having to sleep alone in my bed with a snuggly boy a mile away because of my stupid parents... and today it was the same old drive home. With people braking to a complete stop over nothing.... or was it the sun... or the fact that 95 dared to make a turn... I know... it's scary. I mean how dare the road not be a perfect straight away.
And as always I was eager to get home to Richmond. I like going up there for visits less and less as time goes on. I've lived here long enough to call it home (which my mother hates) a luxury I haven't had for years. And with my parent's living it yet another new house, I am one again an outsider, I can't find so much as a spoon in the kitchen and the room called "mine" is an empty receptical for all my things that aren't there. Empty dressers, a bare desk and decor I didn't pick. Aside from that, there is nothing left there for me but George and my parent's. And even when I am there I can't help but feel as if my presence in not appreciated, activites go on uninterrupted, conversation is half heartedly attempted. After all there are movies to be watched and rooms to be painted... who am I to stand in the way.
Anyhow... that is enough ranting for now. At lease I am back in Richmond for a few days and the next time I go home it will be to catch a flight to VEGAS BABY! I just have to make it thru the next few crazy days of January Sale at work... I work 5-close tonight and then till the dawn of time for floor set... I've already drank coffee and 4 PM so it's not looking good.