I should have written this sooner.
I broke up with Bryan.
Those of you on Facebook have known this since the day it happened. I broke up with him out-of-the-blue on Memorial Day, which is not to say that I hadn't thought about it for a long time, just that I largely kept those thoughts to myself until Sapphire Joust. The breakup happened after 11 pm Monday night. He changed his status around 4am; so people were already sending me messages when I checked email that Tuesday. Then, he made it a very public breakup by writing a note about what a great boyfriend he was.
Well, it's true. He's a thoughtful, considerate, caring, loving person. I certainly didn't call it quits because of something he didn't do right by me.
But, his note seemed to have the wrong impression about why I left, so I wrote a note in response. If you want to know my reasons, get on Facebook and read his note, followed by mine. Or, you could just ask me. I've been told my note makes me out to be a shallow, horrible person and leaves him smelling like a rose. Good. I don't want to place blame at his expense. Now, he didn't see it that way, but his feelings color my words.
I still went to his gallery reception. He thanked me for coming. That's the last time we talked. For those of you who don't know, his art is up at XYZ Gallery. It's a really cool pinup display. You should go see it.
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Now, the real reason I'm telling you this is so you won't go "WTF?" when you see me around with a new guy. I'm stark-raving-mad-crazy over this one. (Crazy enough to terminate a six-year relationship with the coolest guy in B'burg.) I was literally manic. I didn't sleep. My boss joked about me being on drugs, except that he wasn't quite joking. My parents thought I was sick or in some kind of trouble. Yes, but I'm alright now.
(Addressing those of you who know about the text messages: they weren't true then, and are still not true yet. I don't know who wrote them, or why, but they almost kept me with Bryan just to prove that they're not true. Then, I decided that was a bad reason to stay. For those of you who don't know about the text messages, it's not important.)
It's not fair, right, or rational, but on June 5th this new guy and I decided that we are dating exclusively. I'm ridiculously happy...as long as I can suppress the guilt I feel about being that happy in the face of such a recent breakup with such a great person. I will always look back and say "what if". I just hope that all of you can forgive me for not going through life with him.
Those of you on Facebook have known this since the day it happened. I broke up with him out-of-the-blue on Memorial Day, which is not to say that I hadn't thought about it for a long time, just that I largely kept those thoughts to myself until Sapphire Joust. The breakup happened after 11 pm Monday night. He changed his status around 4am; so people were already sending me messages when I checked email that Tuesday. Then, he made it a very public breakup by writing a note about what a great boyfriend he was.
Well, it's true. He's a thoughtful, considerate, caring, loving person. I certainly didn't call it quits because of something he didn't do right by me.
But, his note seemed to have the wrong impression about why I left, so I wrote a note in response. If you want to know my reasons, get on Facebook and read his note, followed by mine. Or, you could just ask me. I've been told my note makes me out to be a shallow, horrible person and leaves him smelling like a rose. Good. I don't want to place blame at his expense. Now, he didn't see it that way, but his feelings color my words.
I still went to his gallery reception. He thanked me for coming. That's the last time we talked. For those of you who don't know, his art is up at XYZ Gallery. It's a really cool pinup display. You should go see it.
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Now, the real reason I'm telling you this is so you won't go "WTF?" when you see me around with a new guy. I'm stark-raving-mad-crazy over this one. (Crazy enough to terminate a six-year relationship with the coolest guy in B'burg.) I was literally manic. I didn't sleep. My boss joked about me being on drugs, except that he wasn't quite joking. My parents thought I was sick or in some kind of trouble. Yes, but I'm alright now.
(Addressing those of you who know about the text messages: they weren't true then, and are still not true yet. I don't know who wrote them, or why, but they almost kept me with Bryan just to prove that they're not true. Then, I decided that was a bad reason to stay. For those of you who don't know about the text messages, it's not important.)
It's not fair, right, or rational, but on June 5th this new guy and I decided that we are dating exclusively. I'm ridiculously happy...as long as I can suppress the guilt I feel about being that happy in the face of such a recent breakup with such a great person. I will always look back and say "what if". I just hope that all of you can forgive me for not going through life with him.