Reminder
I was sooo happy to see Laura at the meeting last night. It just made my heart happy to see that she wasn't dead. I got to ride with Courtney and her to Mike's house and I got to hear what it was like for her out there. Absolutely hellish is a good description. I mean she got her ass kicked out there.
I feel so grateful today for what we have here. It's amazing the life we get to live, but also how fragile our sobriety is. She was saying how she just started getting these judgments and resentments but wasn't telling anyone and that it took her out. That scared the crap out of me because that is where I have been at. Judging people, and thinking that everyone is against me. Thank God that I got honest with Elli. Right now I feel like whatever it takes, I'll do it. I want to stay here, because I feel like right now in this moment (might change in 5 minutes because my head hates me) that this really is the best deal there is.
:o) We are so lucky to be here in the home group we are in :o)
I feel so grateful today for what we have here. It's amazing the life we get to live, but also how fragile our sobriety is. She was saying how she just started getting these judgments and resentments but wasn't telling anyone and that it took her out. That scared the crap out of me because that is where I have been at. Judging people, and thinking that everyone is against me. Thank God that I got honest with Elli. Right now I feel like whatever it takes, I'll do it. I want to stay here, because I feel like right now in this moment (might change in 5 minutes because my head hates me) that this really is the best deal there is.
:o) We are so lucky to be here in the home group we are in :o)