"My Lova"
Can I has excite?
Yes.
The Draa can, legally, has excite.
My lova is coming to town!
As in mine!
:3
She stays in Chicago; I stay in Champaign.
Champaign is 2+ hours away from Chicago.
So it's not like I can come every weekend.
140+ miles away.
Meaning almost 300 miles per trip.
Meaning gas is a BITCH.
My car is about to hit 100,000 miles.
When we got back here a year ago, I was at 76,000.
EVERYTHING around town is local.
Meaning I don't have to go far.
I've done at least 15g of the 25g miles just going there.
I would even go as far as banking 20g of the miles to the trips.
It's tiresome!
Especially when I get off work & would drive.
I'd have my 'spells'.
Long story short, when I begin a long drive
it's a nightmare for me.
My body has to adjust to the sitting in a car thing.
Office chair doesn't gently move me like a car.
Therefore, it's like the car's trying to rock me to sleep.
Then I got music on.
More than likely, windows open.
If it's colder, I definitely keep a window open & a hand outdoors.
Try to chew some gum, but I usually never remember.
Wow. I can rant.
So anyway, she's coming up.
For the entire next week.
It'll be awesome.
And her week ends with a day at the beach!
Not just any beach
This beach resembles a Florida beach I know of [from youth]
Sands are white.
Not as white as Florida.
But brighter than what I'm used to.
And the water is AWESOME.
So awesome, that I passed out while laying on the beach.
My friend Tangie & I were busybodies!
I officially passed out.
Sorry!
But, from what I think I remember
I'd been quite busy that weekend.
So yeah, that'll be awesome.
In other news, a good friend of mine has become a hot topic.
He's the only male I liked talking seriously with.
[I have trust issues]
But he's always been this sort of 'wise owl'
When he's serious, he makes you look at yourself.
[if the convo's about you]
Stop hiding behind excuses.
Or at least help you learn to see what they are.
So that if you still choose to hide behind them
You are fully aware that they're there.
I, personally, felt self-embarrassed when I found mine.
So I broke 'em down.
Took some time, of course
A year or two.
But I got tired of saying ish to myself.
I got tired of the bull continuously circling back.
And I said 'screw it' and got shit done.
Sure enough, when ish hit the fan
The truth in the others I depended on came out.
And I made distance.
I was hurt.
Trust broken.
And that was my first [and possibly my last] team effort
But anwyway...
He's gotten to me yet again.
Sort of pissed me off yesterday.
But it's a good 'pissed-me-off'.
Because I can't say anything.
I can't fight what he's saying.
And, even in my attempt to explain the scenario
I hear what I'm saying and I'm like "well WHY?"
So yeah...this guy's still a definite keeper in my friend list
Pointing my rant elsewhere...
Dwele.
W. ants
W. orld
W. omen
Absolutely amazing. I've only heard 30 second samples
But out of the possible 10 minutes of his album I've heard
NOT A SINGLE TRACK WOULD BE SKIPPED
I haven't even heard the full album
It's not even out yet
But I've already almost found a tear coming down my face.
This album has already set my imagination off.
I don't know what kind of music I'll be making now.
But it surely won't be the same as what I made before..
There's nothing wrong with having a full album of 'soul'
Full of beauty.
I'm going back to my roots.
Starting songs from the ground up.
Rhythm.
Bass.
...bass.
..............a lil more bass.
Melody to enhance the bass.
Go from there.
That's what made the best music with my guys.
I kinda miss playin' music with 'em..
I'm done here.
I took the entire work day to write this entry.
Hence the excess spastic topic-switching
...that spelling feels wrong to me now.
Hmm...
Take care, loves.