Got my final project marks!
I got the results for my 3rd year projects!
I got pretty much what I thought I would, although I'm slightly disappointed, but only because I worked very hard/went through a lot of trouble/new experiences and I feel like the end comments haven't acknowledged as such.
Anyway, I got a 2:1 on my dissertation, which is pretty good, but a 3 on my two major projects.
I'm not too confused as to why I got a 3rd however, so I guess I should take solace in that I understand perfectly how I can improve and get better. Much of the year was spent exploring a whole new format I never even realised existed, and going through trial and error. As such the final work was not to the best of quality/not well presented, I just didnt have enough time.
The only comments I don't agree with is that I apparently 'needed to acknowledge the amount of refinement still waiting to happen' when I have pointed out several times both to teachers and in my final report that my final pieces still need a lot of refining, much to my dismay as well!
I always told myself that the final results don't matter that much, but it's awful hard not to take them seriously, especially when they're not very good!
I've learnt a lot going to Uni, so so much that I probably couldn't of learnt in any other environment, that I am thankful for. But when you get bad results, it seems you can't help but think 'was there any point'?
My biggest worry is that my final project results might reflect ALL of my work! Am I really that bad? I know my art style isn't very wowish or popular amongst anyone, it doesn't really make anyone light up, it isn't appealing. But when even art teachers don't get much from it, it sure makes you rethink things!
The only problem is that alot of thought does go into my work. I can't just uproot and start all over or go ahead and suddenly change my style to something more appealing. There's a strong reason my art looks and is the way it is, I'm not gonna stop doing art in this way, it's completely shaped by ideas that I still feel strongly about.
I guess I'll just keep on drawing. I don't mind not being ambitious with my art any more, that phase is over. During Uni I was so very ambitious, but it's all died down over the past 3 years! I used to really hope I could do what I love for a living, make money from drawing, get published. But nowadays I just dont think I'm good enough for any of that, and trying to figure out how to wind money and commercial art into something I enjoy doing is very head achey.
I've always felt like I was born to draw, but I guess I'm beginning to learn that this does not necessarily mean incorporating what you need to do into something that will get you food and rent.
It's time to just have fun and explore whatever ideas pop into my head- no money, career, expectations tied in there, I'll just do as I wish. If I ever become a professional now, it will only be because I want more people to enjoy any stories or ideas I come up with.
I got pretty much what I thought I would, although I'm slightly disappointed, but only because I worked very hard/went through a lot of trouble/new experiences and I feel like the end comments haven't acknowledged as such.
Anyway, I got a 2:1 on my dissertation, which is pretty good, but a 3 on my two major projects.
I'm not too confused as to why I got a 3rd however, so I guess I should take solace in that I understand perfectly how I can improve and get better. Much of the year was spent exploring a whole new format I never even realised existed, and going through trial and error. As such the final work was not to the best of quality/not well presented, I just didnt have enough time.
The only comments I don't agree with is that I apparently 'needed to acknowledge the amount of refinement still waiting to happen' when I have pointed out several times both to teachers and in my final report that my final pieces still need a lot of refining, much to my dismay as well!
I always told myself that the final results don't matter that much, but it's awful hard not to take them seriously, especially when they're not very good!
I've learnt a lot going to Uni, so so much that I probably couldn't of learnt in any other environment, that I am thankful for. But when you get bad results, it seems you can't help but think 'was there any point'?
My biggest worry is that my final project results might reflect ALL of my work! Am I really that bad? I know my art style isn't very wowish or popular amongst anyone, it doesn't really make anyone light up, it isn't appealing. But when even art teachers don't get much from it, it sure makes you rethink things!
The only problem is that alot of thought does go into my work. I can't just uproot and start all over or go ahead and suddenly change my style to something more appealing. There's a strong reason my art looks and is the way it is, I'm not gonna stop doing art in this way, it's completely shaped by ideas that I still feel strongly about.
I guess I'll just keep on drawing. I don't mind not being ambitious with my art any more, that phase is over. During Uni I was so very ambitious, but it's all died down over the past 3 years! I used to really hope I could do what I love for a living, make money from drawing, get published. But nowadays I just dont think I'm good enough for any of that, and trying to figure out how to wind money and commercial art into something I enjoy doing is very head achey.
I've always felt like I was born to draw, but I guess I'm beginning to learn that this does not necessarily mean incorporating what you need to do into something that will get you food and rent.
It's time to just have fun and explore whatever ideas pop into my head- no money, career, expectations tied in there, I'll just do as I wish. If I ever become a professional now, it will only be because I want more people to enjoy any stories or ideas I come up with.