i hate inertia
so I said "goodbye" to a lot of people on Saturday. Now, I'm a believer in there being no goodbyes. But right now I'm presented with a situation. Here are people I have spent significant time with, not just six weeks or anything. And some of them think we'll see each other again. I'm not convinced.
It's not that I don't want to. But, where will I be after graduating? I have no idea, and even though I have no clue as to what I even want to do, I have this desire to move. far. So it's entirely possible I will not be in any position to see many of these people again, except maybe for one or two days a year. that's ok until within a year or two everyone else has spread out from Hamilton. And then that dies. so it goes. in the end, all i can say is peace, and keep in touch. No certainty.
Or maybe my desire to get far away is driven by a need to forget. forget that these people ever existed or ever meant anything to me. maybe moving is my desperation.
fuck you Theo. fuck this. i'm done. die. peace.
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It's not that I don't want to. But, where will I be after graduating? I have no idea, and even though I have no clue as to what I even want to do, I have this desire to move. far. So it's entirely possible I will not be in any position to see many of these people again, except maybe for one or two days a year. that's ok until within a year or two everyone else has spread out from Hamilton. And then that dies. so it goes. in the end, all i can say is peace, and keep in touch. No certainty.
Or maybe my desire to get far away is driven by a need to forget. forget that these people ever existed or ever meant anything to me. maybe moving is my desperation.
fuck you Theo. fuck this. i'm done. die. peace.
.