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My life is so borring right now. It is driving me crazy.
I had my baby Leland on 2/22 and he is great, he is a really good baby and for the most part he is super easy. I love him so much. Naomi turned 4 on March 10th and is getting so big I have been having a really hard time with her lately, she hasnt been listening very well and is really hyper. I try not to get so mad at her, and just go in a different room when she is getting on my nerves so I can cool down and not yell at her, but that girl is always at my heels, mommy, mommy, mommy, never leaves me alone so I can never get away for even a second.
I really want to go back to work but with Jasons schedule the way it is, I cant work weekends and he is pretty much at work all day durring the week and only has 1 day off, so it is really frustrating because I want to go back to waitressing but our schedules wont work out and theres no daycares open at the time that I need them.
My life has been so borring, I am hardly ever away from kids EVER, Jason is gone all the time and when he is home he's playing video games or sleeping. I am exhausted because I dont remember the last time I had a full night of sleep, it has been since way before I had the baby cause when I was pregnant I couldnt sleep cause I was so uncomfortable.
I have like no money left now and it really sucks because even when I want to go out I dont even have hardly enough money for gas.
I am so stressed out about so many things. work, the kids, my car, bills, how bored I am. I just need to get out. And me and Jason never get to anything together. We havnt since the baby was born and even when I was pregnant he never wanted to. So he told me to get a babysitter for Sat night (tonight) so we could go out. He told me to get a sitter for Naomi, cause ya know, shes not his, so not his responsibility and he said sher's disrespectful so doesnt want his family to watch her. I guess my kids not good enough? I dunno what the deal is. But Im not going to worry about it. She is my kid and I love her. She isnt at a good age and I am trying really hard with her. But anyways, my mom said she would watch Naomi and his family said they would watch Leland, but Jason didnt bother to tell me that he wanted to do something when he got home from work. So my mom doesnt got off work until 10, now because he NEVER communicates with me, we arent going to do anything cause he cant ask anyone if naomi can go over too, and on top of that i guess he doesnt want to do anything if it means taking the kids. so i guess we are a totaly split family. this is great. my daughter sure is gonna feel like an outcast as she gets older. i hope not though, i just want to croll under a rock right now and die
I had my baby Leland on 2/22 and he is great, he is a really good baby and for the most part he is super easy. I love him so much. Naomi turned 4 on March 10th and is getting so big I have been having a really hard time with her lately, she hasnt been listening very well and is really hyper. I try not to get so mad at her, and just go in a different room when she is getting on my nerves so I can cool down and not yell at her, but that girl is always at my heels, mommy, mommy, mommy, never leaves me alone so I can never get away for even a second.
I really want to go back to work but with Jasons schedule the way it is, I cant work weekends and he is pretty much at work all day durring the week and only has 1 day off, so it is really frustrating because I want to go back to waitressing but our schedules wont work out and theres no daycares open at the time that I need them.
My life has been so borring, I am hardly ever away from kids EVER, Jason is gone all the time and when he is home he's playing video games or sleeping. I am exhausted because I dont remember the last time I had a full night of sleep, it has been since way before I had the baby cause when I was pregnant I couldnt sleep cause I was so uncomfortable.
I have like no money left now and it really sucks because even when I want to go out I dont even have hardly enough money for gas.
I am so stressed out about so many things. work, the kids, my car, bills, how bored I am. I just need to get out. And me and Jason never get to anything together. We havnt since the baby was born and even when I was pregnant he never wanted to. So he told me to get a babysitter for Sat night (tonight) so we could go out. He told me to get a sitter for Naomi, cause ya know, shes not his, so not his responsibility and he said sher's disrespectful so doesnt want his family to watch her. I guess my kids not good enough? I dunno what the deal is. But Im not going to worry about it. She is my kid and I love her. She isnt at a good age and I am trying really hard with her. But anyways, my mom said she would watch Naomi and his family said they would watch Leland, but Jason didnt bother to tell me that he wanted to do something when he got home from work. So my mom doesnt got off work until 10, now because he NEVER communicates with me, we arent going to do anything cause he cant ask anyone if naomi can go over too, and on top of that i guess he doesnt want to do anything if it means taking the kids. so i guess we are a totaly split family. this is great. my daughter sure is gonna feel like an outcast as she gets older. i hope not though, i just want to croll under a rock right now and die