Overwhelmed
My girlfriend has been in a bit of a funk lately.
Last week after our Dinner date we stood in the driveway as she told me that we are too different, I'm not fun, I've never made her smile, I don't make her laugh. I'm not social, I'm too serious. My sense of humor is weird and she's not sure about the age difference still
Then next day she was fine like it was all good
Last night she had a meltdown telling me that everyone hates her and she didn't want to go to Vermont
Today started with me waking up refreshed and excited, I got to ride a horse (Roanie pony) for an hour with Spurs! Then I got to work with Eric helping him shoe horses and it felts reWarding! He complimented me and said I've got so much potential, said he is excited to have me work with him on Wednesdays! So that went well
Went to matts with Brittany for her lesson
On the drive my girlfriend and her were talking. Brittany is like my best friend now and tells me everything.
Apparently I'm too confident, I always boast about how I know everything and am good at everything. I try and relate to much and make things not seem so bad. There was much more but my minds crazy right now
Just a lot of negativity from her
I don't know if I want this anymore, she's making me out like someone i don't feel I am. She seems annoyed with him I am. She makes me question myself too much and I get anxious then depressed.
I have some serious family issues going on right now as well as my own issues. It's been a long long time since I've reached my breaking point but the storm is fast approaching it feels like.
It hurts my hand to hold the rope right now, I don't think I can hang on any longer. And I'm not giving up, because I did try, I tried a lot over and over. But i am on the verge of breaking now.
I don't know what to do, I'm not sure if I want to go on...
Last week after our Dinner date we stood in the driveway as she told me that we are too different, I'm not fun, I've never made her smile, I don't make her laugh. I'm not social, I'm too serious. My sense of humor is weird and she's not sure about the age difference still
Then next day she was fine like it was all good
Last night she had a meltdown telling me that everyone hates her and she didn't want to go to Vermont
Today started with me waking up refreshed and excited, I got to ride a horse (Roanie pony) for an hour with Spurs! Then I got to work with Eric helping him shoe horses and it felts reWarding! He complimented me and said I've got so much potential, said he is excited to have me work with him on Wednesdays! So that went well
Went to matts with Brittany for her lesson
On the drive my girlfriend and her were talking. Brittany is like my best friend now and tells me everything.
Apparently I'm too confident, I always boast about how I know everything and am good at everything. I try and relate to much and make things not seem so bad. There was much more but my minds crazy right now
Just a lot of negativity from her
I don't know if I want this anymore, she's making me out like someone i don't feel I am. She seems annoyed with him I am. She makes me question myself too much and I get anxious then depressed.
I have some serious family issues going on right now as well as my own issues. It's been a long long time since I've reached my breaking point but the storm is fast approaching it feels like.
It hurts my hand to hold the rope right now, I don't think I can hang on any longer. And I'm not giving up, because I did try, I tried a lot over and over. But i am on the verge of breaking now.
I don't know what to do, I'm not sure if I want to go on...