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This is the hardest and most important LJ enrty i'm ever going to type. this is about something that has been apart of me for the last four years, and will be apart of me for the rest of my life. as a young boy i grew up being obese never knowing what to do to help myself out to lose it either. then at fifteen i decided that i needed a change, that i needed to start over. so i went on a crash course to help myself, to get in shape and no longer suffer from obesitty. for almost three years i was in the gym two to three hours every day, working my ass off trying to get healthy. when i was seventeen some how my dad forgot to pay the last payment on our life time membership. i became depressed, i asked myself how could this have happened. one day i was happy lifting weights not having a worry in the world, the next i was crying because i felt all the hard work was going to be for nothing. after about two months i noticed i had gained twenty pounds, i was back up to 200lbs. so i did the worse thing anyone could do to themselves, i became Bulimic. this has been with me for the last four years up until a month and a half ago. i'm going through alot of shit because i treated my body so poorly, but it's worth it. what changed my mind about this whole thing is that i realized that someone i loved dearly knew about it and i wanted to for that person. then i my dad started to have heart problems, which gave me even more of an incentive to get healthy, especially knowing that heart problems are hereditary in my family. i tell you all this because it's going to take alot for me to beat this, and i really need the support of all my friends to do so. so if you see me eating healthy, or not eating that much please don't try to intervene it's just me trying to beat something that is bigger then me. i hope this doesn't make any of you think any less of me, but if it does then sorry. thanx and i love you all.