just breath
My room, like an old cozy cabin in the woods, the soft rain patters outside my window, and I just breath, lost in thought. I breath the cold night air as I hear the rain hit my coat, yet I am untouched, still warm in my thick winter clothes and long-johns. Only one more breath I can see as I step into... my cabin. The heater radiates warmth, my lamp has a soft golden glow, music begins to play as I close the cabin door, and I just breath. I let the ambient music sooth me as the soft light seems to echo in the empty part of my soul, the warm air makes me wonder the wonders of love. The warm air makes me think of what it would be like to be able to share all this peace, all that I am, with someone that I love and that loves me. This warmth I imagine would be cold compared to that of a companion cuddling close. I just breath, and a sense of longing fills my soul, a sort of pain that I could never let go, love. I long for the day when this soft light will shine on something beautiful, instead of reveal an emptiness. I long for the day when I walk in this cabin of warmth and love, not alone. I just breath and a soft smile touches my lips, I just breath, my eyes close, the image of a face comes to my mind, blurred and uncertain, I just breath, and open my eyes, wishing what I saw could be true. Wishing that the image would finally clear and be you. I just breath, still wondering, I smile, still longing. The warm covers close over me, and I sleep, still dreaming.