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theonetheyneed

o16 {Voice;English}

Mar 12, 2010 03:58

It doesn't feel right to think of this place as better than home, but knowing what I know now, it's... a lot better. Preferable, even. Wanting to stay here, though, just makes me feel like... [There's a long sigh, and the communicator shuts off before he finishes his sentence]

discedo: ic, discedo's better wtf?, sythan lives, don't wanna go home, home donotwant

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fuck_mistletoe March 12 2010, 11:23:42 UTC

Like you're running, right? I hear ya.

theonetheyneed March 12 2010, 19:36:10 UTC

Yeah. Although that seems better than the alternative.

fuck_mistletoe March 13 2010, 19:33:17 UTC

How? My experience is running away just brings you full circle and you just end up running headlong into your problems anyway.

theonetheyneed March 13 2010, 19:39:44 UTC

How? Because the alternative is my death, Yuri. [That's not as easy to say as he makes it sound] While Claire was gone? She was back home. I get killed back there. She went to my funeral while she was there...

fuck_mistletoe March 13 2010, 20:09:32 UTC

Maybe this is your chance to change the outcome of things. I dunno. Dying isn't easy, not for anyone and it's hard on the people you leave behind.

But if you can't change it there, you've at least got a chance here to make something right.

theonetheyneed March 13 2010, 20:45:12 UTC

How am I possibly supposed to change any outcomes? I'll go back home, and in the span of about a day, I'll be killed. And there's nothing I can do about it, because I'm not going to remember.

The best I can do here? Make my daughter miserable.

fuck_mistletoe March 13 2010, 21:57:14 UTC

I dunno. I'm not you. I dunno how to change your life. You may be able to fix it, you may not. But you shouldn't just give up because someone tells you you're gonna die. Nothing's decided 'till it's done. And even then...

Anyway, stop being such a wuss. You're her dad, right? You gotta make good.

theonetheyneed March 13 2010, 22:36:33 UTC

That's the thing, Yuri, it's done. Just because it hasn't happened to me, yet... Claire went to my funeral. I don't know if anything here, can possibly change anything there, and Claire told me that when she went home, she didn't remember anything about Discedo. I won't remember, when I go back, that I die, so things are just going to end up as they did for Claire. I'll head to the Stanton Hotel in Washington, where I'll be killed by a super powered serial killer.

Everything Claire looks at me, I can tell what she's thinking. It's just dredging up thoughts of my death, and the funeral, and the fact that my murder was all covered up. And... Like I said, I'm making her miserable, Yuri.

fuck_mistletoe March 14 2010, 10:51:46 UTC

Wait, lemme get this straight. You're making her miserable because you're not dead yet.

Look, I know what it's like to be looking imminent and certain death in the teeth, but you're still alive and there's still the chance that nothing is written in stone. So while you have the chance, be a father to her at least.

theonetheyneed March 15 2010, 09:53:12 UTC

Believe it or not, yes. She sees me alive, here, and it just reminds her that when she goes back home, I won't be there anymore. And she won't remember the time she spent with me, here.

From what Claire tells me, it's written in stone. I don't plan on giving up as her father, here, though. Despite what happens there, I still have a lot to make up for, and finally, the time to do it. It's just difficult.

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