This is it.
I've made a really big decision today.
I'm moving to LA in March.
It's been a crazy emotional day (there's been so many ups & downs lately I feel bi-polar), but it's more than time. I realized all the heart-pangs and conflicted feelings I was having about leaving I'll have about making the adult leap into life anywhere. I was in full adult mode in college but then moved back home after graduation, lost it, and have been feeling 16 yrs old ever since. Don't get me wrong. My parents are great they treat me like an adult & have no rules whatsoever (except for no swearing around Grace..and even so that's more Sharon's. Aunt Kate's slipped up on that one a few times), but I still don't feel like one living under their roof. Yet it's hard jumping back into the being-on-your-own thing when you've adjusted back into life as part of a clan rather than a singleton.
I'm so independent & miss that a lot. It's that jump (back) into adult-mode I'm worried about: coming home to a roomate instead of a fam of 4, a dog, and 3 cats (living with a 3 yr old you forget what quiet actually sounds like); paying my own bills & completely supporting myself including rent (my parents are too kind).
But the time's come where I need to do that stuff anyway. Long ago I decided I'm not staying in Cleveland, and any other city wouldn't exhilerate me as much as LA (nor would I have the connections anywhere else that I already do there). I've over-thought it enough. What's life without new experiences, adventure? It's what I want to do. It's what I have to do.
So it's settled. I've figured out financial stuff & have already started liquidating my room to get as much cash as I can in the bank before I go head West. My car can only hold so much anyway.
Malley's going to hate me.
I'm moving to LA in March.
It's been a crazy emotional day (there's been so many ups & downs lately I feel bi-polar), but it's more than time. I realized all the heart-pangs and conflicted feelings I was having about leaving I'll have about making the adult leap into life anywhere. I was in full adult mode in college but then moved back home after graduation, lost it, and have been feeling 16 yrs old ever since. Don't get me wrong. My parents are great they treat me like an adult & have no rules whatsoever (except for no swearing around Grace..and even so that's more Sharon's. Aunt Kate's slipped up on that one a few times), but I still don't feel like one living under their roof. Yet it's hard jumping back into the being-on-your-own thing when you've adjusted back into life as part of a clan rather than a singleton.
I'm so independent & miss that a lot. It's that jump (back) into adult-mode I'm worried about: coming home to a roomate instead of a fam of 4, a dog, and 3 cats (living with a 3 yr old you forget what quiet actually sounds like); paying my own bills & completely supporting myself including rent (my parents are too kind).
But the time's come where I need to do that stuff anyway. Long ago I decided I'm not staying in Cleveland, and any other city wouldn't exhilerate me as much as LA (nor would I have the connections anywhere else that I already do there). I've over-thought it enough. What's life without new experiences, adventure? It's what I want to do. It's what I have to do.
So it's settled. I've figured out financial stuff & have already started liquidating my room to get as much cash as I can in the bank before I go head West. My car can only hold so much anyway.
Malley's going to hate me.