That Lifetime movie about the Kansas cheerleader becoming a pornstar who does coke was really good
I really wanted to write in my real journal but im too exhausted. No idea why I've been so freaking tired today ever since I got up. The job search continued all day today, only with little spurts of cleaning and doing random stuff to stretch, so it's not like I was doing anything strenuous. Maybe cuz I stayed up all night last night and went to bed @ 5am, but then slept till noon so it's not like I missed out on any hours. Daylight sleep is just never as good as night sleep I guess.
Got a job interview! For a marketing firm in Cleveland on Monday. From what I know the job sounds fun. They were really nice both times I called & kept saying how much they liked my resume. Let's hope!
Clay Aiken is going to be a Dad. I love Clay Aiken but that really weirds me out cuz I thought he was 100% gay? The lady having his baby is like 50. What a waste.
I need to get out of Athens and find a really good crush. Dollywood made me feel really good because I never feel the need for a boyfriend when I'm around the Dollywood crew for an extended period of time except for when we talk about sex because then I want to have it. I wasn't thinking about anything much relationship-related almost the whole weekend (so nice--needed a break from that), but afterwards on the drive back from Matt's I got some clarity I needed. That clarity being I need to get out of Athens and find a really good crush. Or at least find a really good crush, but since I'm only going to be in Athens for 2 more weeks it probs shouldn't be here.
He doesn't know it, but he's losing me. Thought it'd happen after I left but it's already starting to happen now. Im getting more and more whatever about him. This is why I'm bad at relationships. Its been such a long time so back and forth between us and with everything it's just no longer worth it. All the issues, all the drama & emotions have been exhuasted to the point where I honestly just dont care anymore. I dont want to deal with it anymore, have no energy to, and I shouldn't/don't have to. I need to focus my energy on other things and move on. It's weird to say, but even weirder to mean it. Eh.
Im so procrastinating starting to pack to move. Dreading it, actually. Hope everything will fit in my car & the cars my parents bring down for graduation. I can guesstimate but its hard to when things are spread throughout the house. I'm nervous so much has accumulated it won't, esp since I didnt take anything home last summer since I went straight from here to LA and only brought with me what fit in my car, putting the rest here till I got back.
I dont want to leave our shitty, leaky house. These days are going by so fast.
Got a job interview! For a marketing firm in Cleveland on Monday. From what I know the job sounds fun. They were really nice both times I called & kept saying how much they liked my resume. Let's hope!
Clay Aiken is going to be a Dad. I love Clay Aiken but that really weirds me out cuz I thought he was 100% gay? The lady having his baby is like 50. What a waste.
I need to get out of Athens and find a really good crush. Dollywood made me feel really good because I never feel the need for a boyfriend when I'm around the Dollywood crew for an extended period of time except for when we talk about sex because then I want to have it. I wasn't thinking about anything much relationship-related almost the whole weekend (so nice--needed a break from that), but afterwards on the drive back from Matt's I got some clarity I needed. That clarity being I need to get out of Athens and find a really good crush. Or at least find a really good crush, but since I'm only going to be in Athens for 2 more weeks it probs shouldn't be here.
He doesn't know it, but he's losing me. Thought it'd happen after I left but it's already starting to happen now. Im getting more and more whatever about him. This is why I'm bad at relationships. Its been such a long time so back and forth between us and with everything it's just no longer worth it. All the issues, all the drama & emotions have been exhuasted to the point where I honestly just dont care anymore. I dont want to deal with it anymore, have no energy to, and I shouldn't/don't have to. I need to focus my energy on other things and move on. It's weird to say, but even weirder to mean it. Eh.
Im so procrastinating starting to pack to move. Dreading it, actually. Hope everything will fit in my car & the cars my parents bring down for graduation. I can guesstimate but its hard to when things are spread throughout the house. I'm nervous so much has accumulated it won't, esp since I didnt take anything home last summer since I went straight from here to LA and only brought with me what fit in my car, putting the rest here till I got back.
I dont want to leave our shitty, leaky house. These days are going by so fast.