Dec 12, 2005 17:29
Although the word "crunch" has multiple meanings, I refer to the time left on the clock as we attempt to meet our overseas film production schedule and get on the aircraft. Tonight we have an important meeting where the size of the crew and the date of our trip are decided. Things look a bit grim, if I am to be blunt.
I admit that the last few weeks have been personally challenging for me, a dark night of the soul, to quote Hugget and others, where faith has been difficult, dreaming seems foolish, and the momentum of my life on hold.
Something does have to give, and if my plans and desires for the project do give way, then they give way. That is not a 'Que sera, sera' statement; what I mean to say is that there are things out of my control, and it has been good to dream, no matter what happens, God will be good, I will be his child, and I can hope. If this dream does not become a reality for me at this time, then it doesn't. I did what I could do in my strength. A decisive move in any direction will spell some relief.
It has been enriching to return to The Gospel Writers Meet a writing project that I have been working on for some time, conversations and interviews with each Gospel writer in the present day. Mark and I just finished discussing the reality of suffering and the apocalypse.
I look forward to discussing with St. Luke the complicated reality of faith, and a world filled with disappointment, glory, and change.