Be bothered, but subtle.

[theomnibob]

Times of change are expected, but I plan to keep surviving and pressing for something new just the same. Complacence is a terrifying place to wander into. I'd like that people would more completely embrace their tastes, though not to the point where they can't change, but where they're able to comfortably voice what they don't like, and more importantly - why.

I try to forget everything I know to find out if it's worth relearning. This works better with some things than with others. For instance, I've pretty much forgotten that I have a sex drive, but I've also misplaced the reasons to put up with certain people. I don't think we'll always know if we're doing what's best, even by our own standards. Is it better to be bothered by this, or just go with the flow? Being bothered seems so unnecessary most of the time.

My pain meds make my already nearly non-existent appetite even more skittish, and they make me sweat more. I've been putting more effort and money into eating and drinking healthier to help compensate for eating maybe once a day. I really hate that it's been made so difficult to not eat altered foods. Who wants to start a farm with me?

We'll be blowing things up and cooking meats over fires on new year's eve, for anyone that wants to join us. Let us not rely on holidays, nor the position of the planet to change our lives.