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So...The whole Gorlim thing...It isn't that I don't love him, because I do and I always will. But I just wonder if I'm good for him or if I'm holding him back too much by becoming too dependant...
It's like...I almost don't know what to do now...about us...if us is still an option...Or...Hell, I'm not even sure who *I* am right now. It's all one of those big confusing messes and I don't think I'm able to begin sorting it out right now.
Given that I'm the kind of chickenshit who always prefered to run away rather than face his problems head on...Well...in effect, I think I'm running again...This time, back to the Mark. Maybe there I can think all of this over again, figure out the things I want to, and hopefully come to a conclusion of sorts...
Dear Gorlim,
I'm sorry about...everything that's happened between us and that I don't have the guts now to tell you this to your face, but I think it's better that I take a bit of time away from all of this, and to find out once and for all what I think I need to do.
I love you always, and will return as soon as I can.
-Dred
So yeah...here's to hoping...
It's like...I almost don't know what to do now...about us...if us is still an option...Or...Hell, I'm not even sure who *I* am right now. It's all one of those big confusing messes and I don't think I'm able to begin sorting it out right now.
Given that I'm the kind of chickenshit who always prefered to run away rather than face his problems head on...Well...in effect, I think I'm running again...This time, back to the Mark. Maybe there I can think all of this over again, figure out the things I want to, and hopefully come to a conclusion of sorts...
Dear Gorlim,
I'm sorry about...everything that's happened between us and that I don't have the guts now to tell you this to your face, but I think it's better that I take a bit of time away from all of this, and to find out once and for all what I think I need to do.
I love you always, and will return as soon as I can.
-Dred
So yeah...here's to hoping...