rambling about how depressing the world is
stressed.
overwhelmed with work.
haven't reached breaking point yet.
but will certainly do, when crunch time comes.
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am looking for someone whom i can lean on for support, but it seems so difficult... so unlikely, to find that someone. honestly, i'm not really that picky when it comes to relationships. as long as i can get along well with that person, and he is interested in me, and i can manage to stand looking at him all day long without feeling bored/disgusted... yeah, that's quite basic, isn't it?
anyway, it's a depressing world out there. you see others having crushes on the people around you, and wonder whether there's anyone out there who may be harbouring feelings for you.
and then you have no choice but to come to the conclusion that the probability of that occuring at this point in time, is very low.
i sound like i lack confidence in myself. maybe so, but i can't expect to change myself just because i don't look pretty because i wear glasses, or don't have straight hair, or have scarred legs, or lackof a good figure. neither can i myself more 'amiable' by embracing a new religion or disowning my brother.
frankly, i have no money, no time and no energy to care about making myself presentable so that the people whom i like would end up liking me.
it's a painfully cold and lonely and depressing world out there.
and you can't expect to hug just anyone for warmth.