'pull me back to the shore'
...it feels like forever since ive been to church...
i love soccer season, and i love even more being a part of the starting 11 and instead of watching the team suceed, im making it happen...
but church was a large part of my life, and no matter how strong i am or was, im still slowly diminishing without it...
i need a faith thats beyond my strength, for now... if i can't make it to church, im going to have to make it myself daily...
jacqui and i have been going through some tussels, but the faults on my part is that im getting lazy in my 'living.' I cant find the will to try and end a fight... ive done it before, and all i can think of is how much i really dont feel like doing it again...
getting up in the morning, studying for a test, doing projects and doing them in long term preperation, applying to college... it starts at small things and grows to others.
ive been too lazy, and whatever it was i thought i was taking a break from, im done... i wanted to come into this school year full force and suceed the best that i could... and yet ive been making every excuse as to why i should put that acceleration off
im done, i dont know if this mind set will stay with me through the week, month, school year, but i do know that i need to pick it up a little..
i dont have it that bad, in fact, ive got it great, i have an amazing life, and compared to some that are much less fortunate, i couldnt ask for more... its time to count the blessings, praise Him from whom they came, and live life.
im talking about THE life, the right life, the truth life. I walked a strong path of it before, but ive gotten lazy... thats over
i miss my friends from church :( i miss being apart of it. i wanted them there at my homecoming game... but they only know me now from what they read in my livejournal, which doesnt say much.
i apologize for not keeping in touch with you all, because you guys are one of my top blessings, youve never known it, but you save my life every day just with the precense of your love and friendship... without you, a different atmosphere would fall before my eyes, one with a false world, and no honest people before me to remind me of truth. i love you guys, and even when im not at church every week...the few times im there, you guys still bring the same joy to my heart as you always did.
jacqui..through these fights and quarrels lately, ive found that were not like everyone else... so its hard to judge ourselves based on them. but i dont want us to be seperate from everyone else, but more so better than them, because we are due to the beliefs of our hearts. your the strongest pillar in my life, and i know no other way of life besides living with you by my side. i know we need to change, meaning we need to improve our flaws in our characteristics... but ill still love you, and all youve ever done through all this is love me. even when i was too 'lazy' to return it. your awesome, and have endured a lot to get to where we are. i love you:) and thank you
God Bless
James
i love soccer season, and i love even more being a part of the starting 11 and instead of watching the team suceed, im making it happen...
but church was a large part of my life, and no matter how strong i am or was, im still slowly diminishing without it...
i need a faith thats beyond my strength, for now... if i can't make it to church, im going to have to make it myself daily...
jacqui and i have been going through some tussels, but the faults on my part is that im getting lazy in my 'living.' I cant find the will to try and end a fight... ive done it before, and all i can think of is how much i really dont feel like doing it again...
getting up in the morning, studying for a test, doing projects and doing them in long term preperation, applying to college... it starts at small things and grows to others.
ive been too lazy, and whatever it was i thought i was taking a break from, im done... i wanted to come into this school year full force and suceed the best that i could... and yet ive been making every excuse as to why i should put that acceleration off
im done, i dont know if this mind set will stay with me through the week, month, school year, but i do know that i need to pick it up a little..
i dont have it that bad, in fact, ive got it great, i have an amazing life, and compared to some that are much less fortunate, i couldnt ask for more... its time to count the blessings, praise Him from whom they came, and live life.
im talking about THE life, the right life, the truth life. I walked a strong path of it before, but ive gotten lazy... thats over
i miss my friends from church :( i miss being apart of it. i wanted them there at my homecoming game... but they only know me now from what they read in my livejournal, which doesnt say much.
i apologize for not keeping in touch with you all, because you guys are one of my top blessings, youve never known it, but you save my life every day just with the precense of your love and friendship... without you, a different atmosphere would fall before my eyes, one with a false world, and no honest people before me to remind me of truth. i love you guys, and even when im not at church every week...the few times im there, you guys still bring the same joy to my heart as you always did.
jacqui..through these fights and quarrels lately, ive found that were not like everyone else... so its hard to judge ourselves based on them. but i dont want us to be seperate from everyone else, but more so better than them, because we are due to the beliefs of our hearts. your the strongest pillar in my life, and i know no other way of life besides living with you by my side. i know we need to change, meaning we need to improve our flaws in our characteristics... but ill still love you, and all youve ever done through all this is love me. even when i was too 'lazy' to return it. your awesome, and have endured a lot to get to where we are. i love you:) and thank you
God Bless
James