Ups and Downs of life
I just got back from our yearly Vegas trip, and of course I must be depressed because I only post emo posts on this damn site. Vegas was a great time as always. It was the first weekend of the NCAA basketball tourney. We usually go the second weekend, but changed it up this year. Got to see more games. It was also spring break and St Patty's day when we were out there. I have never seen so many people out there before. It was pretty crazy. I got home last night and told my girlfriend that we had gone to a strip club. She was really upset that I went. I can understand why she is upset, but I have no reason for why I went. It's just part of Vegas for guys. I don't know if it is me being selfish and not allowing someone in my life to get close enough that I think of how it might effect us, or what, but I just don't feel what I did was wrong. I know I am selfish. I am an only child. It's also why I don't get very close to my step siblings. But I just can't change over night. I have been like this for 31, going on 32 years. Who knows. I am also tired of working with this company. In my last post, I was excited about the possibilities, but none have happened. I am supposed to be a manager, yet non-technical people are making IT decisions for me. If I am not going to be a manager, then don't expect it of me part time only. I am trying to move away from my current position, and into one that will allow me be more of a tech at a different facility. The tough thing is that my current location is in a transitional phase until we can get all of our systems to the level that is consistant with the "bigger" company that just bought us out. I didn't tell anyone that I applied for it, although I am thinking both of my managers (one from my current company and one from the "bigger" company) will probably hear about my applying. I really want to talk to them about it, but I don't want to either. I have a terrible problem with saying things and offending people because I don't sugar coat it. I am just a direct person. I would really like to stay within this new "bigger" company, since they have a structure and a direction. The chaos that has been going on at my current job is just getting too much for me, and I don't really see any changes happening in the next year. Well, I guess I have whined enough. Toodles.