Is this right? Am I right?
It's quarter past four in the morning give or take and once again I'm more or less wide awake. As the start of term draws nearer I ask myself with more frequency if what I'm doing is right. If being around is right. If just being is a bad idea. Yeah, I know this sounds like something I was more prone to saying end of junior year and part of the way into senior year till the meds kicked in. But more and more I'm wondering if I'd just be better off not taking them and running amok. I mean, I've lost all sight of perspective. I'm not quite right on them and I'm not quite right off of them, what's the point? Right? I've just been taking huge steps backwards. I just don't know anymore. I don't know if I'm doing anything right or if what I'm doing is even right to begin with. More often than not, I'm still wondering if maybe I shouldn't just give up and get out of the game completely. Things look so promising and then ::poof:: up in smoke -- and I'm left holding the matches and accelerant. Anyone know where I can get some Johnstown Kool-Aid mix?