Another brief entry...
Ok, I'm really pissed now, lol. I had an entry about 90% done and then Spud walked across my keyboard and erased it all, and I have no clue how to restore saved drafts.
Anyhoo...
I'm really really tired. Basically I sleep when Ben sleeps. I wake when he wakes. I eat when he eats (which is to say that I've lost a few pounds in the last few days, lol).
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
It seems odd, but these past few days have been a slow revelation for me on the Biblical idea of knowing someone. Its not just to know what someone likes and dislikes, such as favorite foods or colors. Its not just knowing their sense of humor, or knowing their wants and needs in life. To know someone doesn't mean that you know their physical needs, either, like a caretaker would, or a mistress would.
To know someone is to see that their wants and needs are a reflection of our own, so that in fulfilling their needs, we fulfill our own.
I know this all sounds cheezy, like something out of a love poem that nobody cares about. But in a very deep and mostly indescribable way, its incredibly meaningful for me.
I know I still get grouchy and frustrated sometimes, but oh well. I still wouldn't have it any other way.
Anyhoo...
I'm really really tired. Basically I sleep when Ben sleeps. I wake when he wakes. I eat when he eats (which is to say that I've lost a few pounds in the last few days, lol).
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
It seems odd, but these past few days have been a slow revelation for me on the Biblical idea of knowing someone. Its not just to know what someone likes and dislikes, such as favorite foods or colors. Its not just knowing their sense of humor, or knowing their wants and needs in life. To know someone doesn't mean that you know their physical needs, either, like a caretaker would, or a mistress would.
To know someone is to see that their wants and needs are a reflection of our own, so that in fulfilling their needs, we fulfill our own.
I know this all sounds cheezy, like something out of a love poem that nobody cares about. But in a very deep and mostly indescribable way, its incredibly meaningful for me.
I know I still get grouchy and frustrated sometimes, but oh well. I still wouldn't have it any other way.