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Holy Shit, it has been a big week trans-wise...
1. Michele came out for me to Heidi, which means Eric will know soon enough.
2. I sort of came out to a friend at work.
3. I have my hysto scheduled for March 5th. Insurance still has to officially approve it, but the doctor said she didn't see any reason why they wouldn't, given my history with PCOS. I am going to keep an ovary though, for long-term health reasons. Since I don't have a hormone plan right now, I'm going to stay with what my body already has going for it. My dr. said we can supplement the testosterone later if I want, but the natural estrogen is good for me for now.
4. After I emailed my mom to tell her I was going to have a hysterectomy, she called me and asked if I was going to get it done because I wanted to get a sex change. I talked to her briefly about the whole process of things and how I have been thinking about gender reassignment but I haven't made any final decisions. She cried, and asked me what my name would be if it wasn't Holly. Her little Hollyberry, she said. I said I know that it feels like a loss, and in some ways it is a loss, but we will always have the past and that even if its a loss, it isn't an end. She said she just wants me to be happy and she wanted to know if I was miserable. I told her that I had a lot to be thankful for and there is much in my life that I am overwhelmingly thrilled with a lot of what I have, but there will always be stuff, in everyone's life that they want to change and improve. Anyway, I was at work, so I couldn't say all of it, so I emailed her a link to PFLAG's trans network, and a booklet from them for parents. That'll at least get her started I think. She asked me what do we do now. I said we keep talking about it and we get her some resources and that everything is going to be okay. I think it went really well. She wasn't shocked, she added stuff up in her head before asking me. She wasn't angry at me. And, we are going to talk some more about it. This is a full 180 from how she used to deal with stuff. I'm very very glad right now. It is really good to feel like it isn't this huge secret that will destroy stuff around me.
1. Michele came out for me to Heidi, which means Eric will know soon enough.
2. I sort of came out to a friend at work.
3. I have my hysto scheduled for March 5th. Insurance still has to officially approve it, but the doctor said she didn't see any reason why they wouldn't, given my history with PCOS. I am going to keep an ovary though, for long-term health reasons. Since I don't have a hormone plan right now, I'm going to stay with what my body already has going for it. My dr. said we can supplement the testosterone later if I want, but the natural estrogen is good for me for now.
4. After I emailed my mom to tell her I was going to have a hysterectomy, she called me and asked if I was going to get it done because I wanted to get a sex change. I talked to her briefly about the whole process of things and how I have been thinking about gender reassignment but I haven't made any final decisions. She cried, and asked me what my name would be if it wasn't Holly. Her little Hollyberry, she said. I said I know that it feels like a loss, and in some ways it is a loss, but we will always have the past and that even if its a loss, it isn't an end. She said she just wants me to be happy and she wanted to know if I was miserable. I told her that I had a lot to be thankful for and there is much in my life that I am overwhelmingly thrilled with a lot of what I have, but there will always be stuff, in everyone's life that they want to change and improve. Anyway, I was at work, so I couldn't say all of it, so I emailed her a link to PFLAG's trans network, and a booklet from them for parents. That'll at least get her started I think. She asked me what do we do now. I said we keep talking about it and we get her some resources and that everything is going to be okay. I think it went really well. She wasn't shocked, she added stuff up in her head before asking me. She wasn't angry at me. And, we are going to talk some more about it. This is a full 180 from how she used to deal with stuff. I'm very very glad right now. It is really good to feel like it isn't this huge secret that will destroy stuff around me.