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It is so weird that one little thing in a sea of little things can pop right up out of the water and redeem whatever day it's floating in. It was just a little phone call from a friend I haven't heard from, in what seems like forever. But, there she was and there I was and we were talking again. This connection we have, it's odd, but it works for us. So, thanks for that.
I emailed Michele yesterday to tell her all about my lunchtime bike ride. I didn't do it intentionally, but I now ride (when I'm alone) as Tyler. I know this because my tone and energy and overall attitude is different the whole time I'm pedaling. If you know me at all, then you know I love bikes. I work around them, I socialize around them, I find a lot of joy in riding them. I've always had this internal monologue, it mostly runs when I'm trying to get my ass up a hill and I'm tired...I won't go into details, but it's usually pretty derogatory. But, now. Now. Now it's all encouraging and healthy. It feels good to sweat and hurt and go fast. It's like I have this tiny light at the end of tunnel. And, that tiny light is me, finally. Okay, that sounds completely cheesy, but it's true anyway, so there.
Every day I feel something a little bit differently. And, sometimes I feel like I'm crawling along, so slow. But, that's okay, because I feel like there's tons of stuff up ahead that I don't want to deal with yet.
-tyler
I emailed Michele yesterday to tell her all about my lunchtime bike ride. I didn't do it intentionally, but I now ride (when I'm alone) as Tyler. I know this because my tone and energy and overall attitude is different the whole time I'm pedaling. If you know me at all, then you know I love bikes. I work around them, I socialize around them, I find a lot of joy in riding them. I've always had this internal monologue, it mostly runs when I'm trying to get my ass up a hill and I'm tired...I won't go into details, but it's usually pretty derogatory. But, now. Now. Now it's all encouraging and healthy. It feels good to sweat and hurt and go fast. It's like I have this tiny light at the end of tunnel. And, that tiny light is me, finally. Okay, that sounds completely cheesy, but it's true anyway, so there.
Every day I feel something a little bit differently. And, sometimes I feel like I'm crawling along, so slow. But, that's okay, because I feel like there's tons of stuff up ahead that I don't want to deal with yet.
-tyler