single

[thenmorningcame]

so i guess i have to get used to being single... why you ask.. oh maybe because of my past boyfriends and their past.. or maybe cause i am trying to start something with someone that is verbally abusive, or crazy... yet i want him.,.. yet i tell him EVERYTHING upfront as to what i want in a relationship, and later he fucking throws that in my face... well fuck you asshole... all i want is to try this out, risk my family disownign me, and all you do is fucking push me away... oh hell no....

i know that i have no updated in like years... but my journal and therapist are and are not helping... so i am lasing out to you all... "friends" of mine....