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I walked home today, listening to an entire Blonde Redhead album while the sun was setting, and I was really looking forward to getting home and seeing Chie and visiting "my" dog and getting my room organized and writing my paper, and and and... I got home and Chie seemed a little upset with me for not separating my trash correctly (I forgot one day). I felt really bad, and I hate that she's going through my trash. She also wouldn't let Kotaro (aforementioned dog) into my room at all. She shut him in Nozomi's room, and I can't play with him (which, let's be honest, I was looking forward to all day...). And now I'm depressed for very trivial and stupid reasons. I just want my host-mom to like me, but whenever I'm here it feels like I'm in her way or am just a pain in the ass... and I'm not sure how to make it better, or if there even is anything to make better. I don't know how much of this is just a language barrier and cultural difference, and how much of it is her being annoyed at me.
On the bright side of things, my birthday package came from my America-mom! I got a beautiful bracelet and some other things that made me smile... I needed that.
Other good things:
Birthday trip to Universal Studios Japan was freaking amazing! Monday was perfect, topped off with a musical tribute to my birthday at the Hard Rock Cafe (to the tune of "Celebration", replete with singing waiters and tambourines). Drunken glee ensued. Who says your 21st is no big deal in Japan? I FINALLY had a good birthday.
Possible summer job in Japan...???
I think my relationships are going to continue getting healthier as I try harder and harder to stop being so stubborn with people. I am really trying to improve things from my end, and I think it's going to work. Like, for reals.
I am trying to stay positive about things. Tonight it's been hard, but... you get it, insert some motivational keep-your-chin-up phrase here.
Fin.
On the bright side of things, my birthday package came from my America-mom! I got a beautiful bracelet and some other things that made me smile... I needed that.
Other good things:
Birthday trip to Universal Studios Japan was freaking amazing! Monday was perfect, topped off with a musical tribute to my birthday at the Hard Rock Cafe (to the tune of "Celebration", replete with singing waiters and tambourines). Drunken glee ensued. Who says your 21st is no big deal in Japan? I FINALLY had a good birthday.
Possible summer job in Japan...???
I think my relationships are going to continue getting healthier as I try harder and harder to stop being so stubborn with people. I am really trying to improve things from my end, and I think it's going to work. Like, for reals.
I am trying to stay positive about things. Tonight it's been hard, but... you get it, insert some motivational keep-your-chin-up phrase here.
Fin.